when i was 18 i started shooting heroin. at 19 i slowed my addiction to painkillers, and met a girl 27 who i fell in love with and moved in together with. i worked sporadically and in 05 katrina destroyed our hometown and everything we ever knew. we lived out in the sticks 4 a while and eventually found our way back home, shortly thereafter breaking up. it ripped a hole in my heart & i started shooting dope again. then i wound up in jail a few years, got out and got back with her, because i love her. a few years went by with me on suboxone to mantain my addiction, all was well, & in 2010 we had a baby boy who is my everything, my love. 4 months later she went nuts, screamed & argued with me everyday till she moved out (with my kid) i started fucking up & a few days later went back to jail for another 6 months. got out in Dec.2010 with no money, no car, no job, no apartment, no baby, no babys momma, no hope, no help. i lived on the streets of new orleans for a few months, stealing to survive, shooting dope cause i stopped giving a fuck, and 3 months ago got back on a suboxone clinic, got a job, moved in with some friends n got my shit somewhat together. then guess what 2 months ago i get laid off. i spend my days trying to hustle change to afford my meds(habit), My son and his mom were the only family ive ever had, theyre gone now she moved 2 hours away, i have no way to get to her and the bitch refuses to answer the phone. ive applied at every fuckin place in the town i live in and there are no fuckin jobs. im so broke i dont even eat somedays. im 27 now, my son is one and a half, i havent even seen him in 7 months, and it hurts so bad im thinking about killing myself. i have no hope, if God's listening i guess he just doesnt care. | |
Be brave. Be courageous. Thats all that matters. Its not easy. Its not supposed to be easy. Many have it better, some have it worse. This is life.
I feel for you. Its not about winning, its about the fight for life. Keep fighting. Never stop. Never give up. Only then you truly fail.
I watch you.
FYI Its usually spoiled rich kids who become herion addicts. If you don't know that, then you're dumb.
Get fucking BENT!
You get free needles and free methadone, I don't even get a free cup of FUCKING COFFEE!
I don't have aids, I don't spread aids. I don't even have any kind of herpes. I can't even have a relationship because if you made it to age 30 without getting something you best just stop there, because everyone else is a festering pool of disease. Getting drunk and fuking. Want my advice go fuck a 300 lbs male virgin with a JOB. WITH A JOB! I can see past FAT I cant see past a HUGE ASS like the majority of men are!
Yeah God loves you, he loves for you to quit being an asshole. JEsus!
First off, I used to be a drug dealer. Did my time with regrets. Let me tell you. Sure some rich kids do drugs, so does poor kids, or any other kids and adult.
Once you're hooked on drugs, your hooked, and become an addict till either you get clean. Or death.
You think drugs give a damn what social status you have?
I-God-I-God I-God.
mm what to do :s
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