Im a 22 year old male, i come from a poor background and was brought uo being told not what i can achieve but what will happen if i dont achieve, it was really driven into me. My father (in his mind) had a bad life and so he took it out on me, ive been a victim of attack and verbal abuse for very little in terms of reason and sometimes no reason at all.
Im suffer chronic anxiety & depression, speech disorder and im pretty sure i have some kind of mild learning difficulty, i have to read or hear things twice before it makes sence, i hence lack the basic skills to become employed and make something of my life, the pressure is too much because i know if i dont make something of my life we will all be struggling to get by, its all really taken its toll on me, im 22 but if you were to look at me you'd think i was almost certainly 29+, i have grey hairs and my hair literally falling out due to the stress, i dont sleep well and hardly ever go out. I have very very little in terms of friends, im very quite and hardly smile (never laugh), ive never had anything close to a girlfriend.
I have thought about taking my life several times, i have nothng to look forward to and if it wasnt for my mothers presence and her hope for me to do well in my life i believe i may have taken it. Life sucks, and sucks even more when i see how easy its been for others that have been born with a golden spoon in mouth and clearly dont deserve it.