I hate this city, this place, i want to get out. I was supposed to leave and enroll as a student abroad, but that didn't happen. Now i am stuck here in this mediocre university for 200 bucks a year, and i don't even like what I'm studying. I am not interested at all in these lessons and thus i barely make grades for them not to kick me out. I don't seem to fit in the community here and i don't care because i don't like it anyway. I am a totally different bird from everyone in here. I'm in my 20s and never had a girlfriend because i have a misjudged sense of what love is. Hell what am i talking about, i don't even know what the hell that word means. The only girl i have ever met that represents pure perfection in my eyes and is totally different from everyone i have met in my whole life is in a different town and she's leaving to study abroad anyway, so....yeah fuck it. The one thing i love most is music and have been learning music theory, composing, arranging, mixing, sound design and stuff for an year now, but that's just not enough.. i want to study it as a profession, which won't happen. Anyway i intend to keep doing this until my 30s and rock the world, just won't give up. Nothing else matters. I am still living with my parents and because of them i didn't get to study abroad. They just wanted me to stay with them forever..which is fucking great!! Yeah thanks guys love you..gj making my life even more miserable than what it is now. I have no job too, who cares. It seems that i wont fit in here, won't find a girlfriend, won't study what i want, feel dependent on my parents and live with them for a long time now, i am also worthless right now and i will be stuck in this city in the middle of nowhere with everything fucked up for a long time now. That's it.