Life hade been good with me. I thought my future would be bright when I got scholarship to study in Japan. I just felt depressed when writing my master thesis. The doctor dianogized me that I got szycophrenia. I had been hospitalized and dropped out of gradate school. I thought I had lost all my friends who used to have fun with me. Actually, I recovered when I came back to my country and I got my dream job in international development at Room to Read. I love the job so much and I made a lot of friends. Just one day, it changed my life foreover, on that day, I had a small arguement with my supervisor. I suddenly thought of leaving my job. I thought I could work from home such as painting, singing or acting at Hollywood. I even thuoght that I was God. I even wanted to become a nobel prize winner in medicine or peace as I thought I could cure people with mental disease. My parents and relatives started thinking that I was crazy again, so they sent me to hospitals in Vietnam for one week. When I came back from Vietam, I got fired. At first, I felt ok because I thought I could find job at UNDP. But thing doesn't come that way, I have sent my resume to several places, but I got only one or two interview, and I don't get a job for almost 2 years. I now start thinking I am unemployed for the rest of my life. I feel ashamed to meet even my closed friends as I am over-weight, unemployed, and depressed. In deed, I cry to myself. Why my life becomes like this. I used to be a fun loving person, but now everything changes. My friends never invite me to their weddeings. Yes, that's also good for me because I don't want to meet people and I am broke. I even envy my friends whose life are so happy. Why my life is in the rut? | |
I don't know what I can said to you !
My life is a coma I want is die or live but I don t want stay a bed for the rest of my life call " world "
Hope this helps. Cheers
Internally cry
Externally expression void
Mentally paranoid death will never come
Loath the sun
Cause it means it’s not done
Await the return of his Son
Not sure which will come first
Awaiting both since birth
The girth of the hearse isn’t wide enough for this hurt
World lets me down
In sorrow I drown
Daily I frown
Never to wear a crown
life is white death is black, both I lack so I have brown
A miserable existence
Mind so distant, because of an Earthly resistance
A built up tolerance of pain
Smoke on the brain
Emotions down the drain
Heart permanently stained
Considering staying
Tired of paying
Continuously praying
But life is a strain
So ready to break the chains
That bind to this plane
God something’s got to change
!
I have very dark skin!
I have no brothers and no sisters
and also no money..no friends
i wanna sucide..bt.i cant do it!
Im 19 yrs old..other friends are going party with their girlfriends
bt i havnt! Im forever alone!
(dont care about english im not a prffnl in english)
it too late to apologized.what are you living up to.something had to give and work had to be done.no money,no job,who want to be with you.how are you going to live your life.i had to live my destiny in life.is painful. feeling like to cry,feeling ashame. wish I could live a normal life like somebody else.in this life time that all I got.wishing in the next life time,that I could live a better life.right now. just had to live day by day,enjoy life with family.
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