You know, it’s actually kind of funny. Once again, I’ve been reminded to consequences of actually letting people in and caring for them. The only thing that can come from that is pain. Everyone I try to get close to, even these so-called “friends” go out of their way to hurt me. I really thought I actually made some friends this time, too. Finally, I had two people in my life I could talk to. I tried to be a good friend. I did my best to do everything I believe a friend should do. Is it me? Or is it people in this world are just so horrible there’s no hope left? Now, once again, I am alone. So, I will go and sit in my empty place and listen to the sounds of silence. I hate this world. I hate everything and everyone in it. Mankind needs to be wiped off this world, for man is nothing more than a plague to the planet. And I know I cannot make that happen. Then again, maybe it’s not them which needs to be taken out of this world. Maybe it’s me. I’ve heard time and time again, when you know something has to be done, it is your obligation to ensure it gets done. Maybe it’s time for me to do something about it. Stop living in the silence and become part of it. It’s not me who doesn’t need this world. It’s this world that doesn’t need me. Let’s look at the facts…my sister would be greatly upset if I were no longer around; however, she does have a good support circle now to help her get through it. And, I think, there may be one or two people out there who may actually be upset about it. But, I know I they will quickly move past it. I have no one close enough to be greatly affected by my loss. And I wonder if I would even be missed. Hell, my sister, who is the closest person to me, only talks to me when she wants money. There is no one else. No parents, no friends…nothing. What kind of life is this? Normally, you would hear some sort of apology or even some expression of love, but I have neither. I am not sorry. For I can no longer take this pain and sorrow, so why should I be sorry for ending it. And there is no expression of love. Why should I give my love to those who care not for me? I have my reasons. There is no need to go through my fucked up life and give you all the details. But they are there, and they are many. But I needed to leave this behind. If only to prove a point; and my point is simple: there is no point. And, as for last words…I’ll see so many of you in hell. | |
I have no friends but let me add this. I am a sophomore right now completing a math major and next year I will be working on my masters as an undergrad. I will hopefully end up making lots of money. The reason why I got to this point in the first place is not because of friendship. It's because I took matters into my own hands and I ripped through people who got in my way. If you are looking for friends then my advice for you is to play an MMORPG, a game where people remain anonymous, any personality can be made, in other words you can restart your life in this game. People wont be your friends but they will be friendly.
OR you can take the other route. You can kill yourself. If this is painful then deaths release could be a decent alternative. Even if there is no heaven and hell, wouldn't nothingness be better than pain?
I keep a cord by my bed no one has seen it, its mine and it makes me feel happy, relaxed as though i have it there just incase.
My sister would miss me. Only because shes had a sister all her life, not because im any great influence on her.
This stuff about the people of Africa or the homeless pisses me off. Everyone has their own problems. And just because some problems are different to otgers doesnt mean they are more or less real. Dont compare yourself with others thats more dangerous. Im 23 female abd accourding to some im really pretty 'oh you should be a model' and think fuck off u fat ugly idiot. I dont know why i feel like that. I have no friends. The ones i talk to surely arent actual friends as they dont no how literally sad i am. My dad died in 2009 seems like it happened a week ago. I miss him alot dispite having had little or no contact with him for the majority of my life. You guys and your misery has helped me so thank you.
He wants to have a steady girlfriend, somebody to care for and love.
He does not know what women really want from a relationship, and neither do you.
Love and friendship takes time and caring. Time to listen. True love does not come easy or fast, life is not like in Hollywood movies where all problems are solved in 90 minutes.
Hello, this is the Devil, the Master of Darkness, the Prince of Pain and the Imperator of the Dark Legions.
My kingdom is full of pirates, bikers and whores. We have gambling, drinking and smoking is allowed.
We do not allow whiny bitches like you. You have to earn your way here or when you show up, we will kick your ass and feed you to Cerberus, our three-headed Hell Hound.
I was just trying to lighten up things a bit. I have been in some critical situations and realized that in order to survive, I needed a darkly sarcastic sense of humor.
(And... I am not an asshole, just a lowly jackass.)
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