I was abused growing up and the only reason I'm saying this is because I don't know any of you and in need to vent. I'm 17 sometimes my mom still hits me not as much as before. All I hear now is you'll never get married you are never gonna make it to college I hate you and whatever. I needed a way to get out. So four years ago I started caddying and have been working toward the caddie scholarship my whole life. I applies this year and didn't get it, but I got into u of I champaign. My dad wants my to go but again my mom can't be happy and just says I won't make it. What really sucks is this girl just found out today she for the scholarship she goes to my school. She has only been caddying for 1 and a half years now and she's pretty wealthy. She has the perfect life. She now also has my dream, what I have been working for. To make it better I get to hear everyone say how she deserved it tomorrow. I know I should be happy for her but I just can't. I know it pure jealousy. My life just sucks. I would talk to my friends if I had them. I have one friend and for the last year alcohol is my best friend. Even on school nights. | |
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