I've been divorced twice;
I am bankrupt;
I suspect I will be losing my job in the future because of the bankruptcy;
I have no brothers or sisters, parents are dead;
I have no faith, thoughts of church or handing my life over to religion gives me the creeps;
I have been through the counseling, anti-depressive drug routine which hasn't worked (therapy of course, costs money);
I have no hobbies because hobbies cost money (everything costs);
I have no friends because of my social anxiety (from a dysfunctional childhood);
My father was an alcoholic to which I am susceptible, the only reason I believe I'm not is that I can't afford to buy it;
I have no retirement fund any more as I used it to pay off the mortgage on my previous house where the children live with the ex;
Every week I worry that I will have enough money to buy enough gas to get to work;
The apartment hasn't seen more than 60 degrees in the winter because I can't afford the heating bill;
I can't provide my children (2) with a secure future, the only hope there is that I die while still employed so that they will get the insurance;
The ex has a low paying job and the phone has been disconnected once already due to no payment and the heating oil company has stopped service pending more payments;
Every night I hope I will just not wake up
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you are not looking and wow..something awesome shows up..that is what keeps us getting up and that is all there is..hope...buck up, things will get better..
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