my life right now sucks so much its hard to even get through each day. the year has been horrible. first of all i'm poor. my dad left and my mom struggles to even pay for food and other basic stuff. sending us to school is a battle. i often have little or no money. we don't have a car nor have we had access to one since my dad left. yet still i battle and study and try to make something of myself. it didn't work out that good. i failed a course pushing me back an extra semester. since i am funded for school this means i have to pay for this course with money i do not have, and since i didn't graduate i can't get a good job. that's just the start. i always used to work and try to get some extra to help out around home and have some money. i actually kept a positive outlook on life. i had a gf. it got serious. i gave her my all. all my time and effort. i loved this girl like no other. i swear i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. we were even planning to eventually get married. obviously though, she left me, for someone else. in one night. destroyed my whole world around me. wait it gets worse. my grandmom who i lived with for a period of time when we got evicted, is dieing. she can't even qualify to do surgery to prolong her life. another big part of me gone. since the start of the year i have been getting rejected from every place i apply to or anything i try to do. being poor would suck right. until you consider that the little i do have was stolen from me. i was held up at gun point more than once this year. f*cking bandits who just held me up. took everything i had. the wounds from the robberies healed though, but the pain of it all doesn't go away. life and the world seems to be fucking me over everyday. i won't be surprised if right now someone is planning to shoot me in the leg, so i feel the pain but don't die. every morning i wake up to realise that my life only gets shittier. | |
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