Well lets see...
Last year, when I was 14, my (now ex) boyfriend sexually harassed me. HE would shove his hands (and finger) places where I didn't want them and wouldn't let me resist. Then when I broke up with him he made my life hell by blaming me for his depression and how he waqs suicidal.
Then another guy decided he'd tell me about how he was suicidal and also blamed me.
I started cutting myself In January. And since last August I have had an eating disorder where I only eat dinner and throw it up straight after.
I havn't told anyone any of this before.
I get called good looking by guys ad some girls, but to myself I see a fat ugly biyatch.
Up until this year I have always been the nerdy straight-A chick. Now my teachers tell me I dont put any effort in, am not enthusuastic, need to improve. No one gets that I don't give a f***! I have other stuff going on in my life and I'm still decently passing so why bother?
My family have tight as rules and I'm not allowed out after 6pm unless I'm with friends and supervised by an adult my parents know. Im 15 for gods sake I think I can look after myself.
I don't know why I'm so f***ed up thats why I almost want to be raped or something to have an excuse.
I can't see myself living after high school unless I become a cop. My parents don't want me to become a cop because I 'am too smart for that.' They don;t get that I can do what I want.
I would kill myself, but I don't wanna die fat. 99lb is too fat.
Life Sucks.
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See you in hell.
To keep it short, she needs assistance...Everyone does. I'm sure you did too. Take your bitch-oscity somewhere else.
Girl, just SCROLL OVER stupid comments like this. u'll only get more depressed.
So why don't you play in the trash can and stop using "rich-people" technology not suited for your bitch-oscity. If you have problems, find a way to solve them...instead of sitting on your ass and belittling others. Psh...Sad..Truely Sad. But I understand...You don't have a life anymore. This is "free-time" for you.
I will personally see YOU in hell...and have a little bird cage waiting for you to live in.
they are suicidal because they are broken.
it is unreasonable to ever think that someone can fix someone else. someone else must put themselves in a mental place, on purpose, in order to receive fixing- which could be as simple as accepting what good there IS in life. but they have to do it.
you can lead a horse to water- you cant ever make him drink.
eating like that kills your metabolism, and makes your bones week, not to mention screws up how your body regulates your mood (Which i am guessing is an issue right now??)
food is calories, calories are energy, energy is meant to flow. eat food all the time- good food, full of vitamins, minerals, vitamin rich fats (vita A, D, E, and K are only found in fats, and you can loose your sanity and bones without them), lean meats and anything that has been touched by the sun. be active all the while. walk. run for fun. play tag with kids. who cares what others think? swing on the monkey bars! the food energy flows in, and is exerted by your body and your mood. everything feels good when you let that happen for you.
when you restrict your calories to the point where you are hardly eating anything, most people experience severe depression, and like life is deplorable. that is a normal symptom of being sick- with starvation.
try being healthy on purpose to solve your problems--- not more violently destructive to solve them. the latter just doesn't make sense right? It just makes things worse. Grapple for what is right and healthy- you aren't powerless. C'ome on girl! THINK about it! ^.^
Life is shit! Some people get lucky in life. Where nothing like that happens. But trust me, when someone or people who come into your life like that they will of course make you fee like hell you just gotta move on baby. You got some good friends? Then your lucky. you a smart girl? Then your lucky.
Boys like them scums are worth dying anyway. You a pretty girl? Go and get a decent girl, don't you dare give a flying fuck for those who treat you badly.
Your parents may annoy you but at least they care for you.
Have a nice life.
i know it i hard to believe but god luvs u and he put u ont this earth 4 a reason.
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