well I was a fat kid from the beginning so that did get me off to a very good start.
I was bullied at primary school for being fat, now I am in high school and people from my old school are still with me but they all remember what I used to be like even though I am now 15 and I am no longer fat but still have a tainted name, so my social life couldn't be any worse at the moment.
My parents are separated and I can't deal with it.
Most of my relationships that I have had which is not many, I have always managed to fuck up one way or another and the one girl I have a thing for at the moment well it just won't happen for reasons I won't explain, and it's just cutting me deeper and deeper because I love her, I will always love her, readers may think that I will eventually move on but you just don't understand this one.
So, I'm fifteen, fit and healthy, but life just isn't for-filling at the moment. My best friend who I have known since I was born died this year, along with one of my other friends and another boy from my school and this pain I just can't talk about, it just hurts to much.
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unlike us fuckers
we are fucked
COMPLETELY FUCKED
you are hearing this from a 27 yr old
but she will never know the truth
because of how strongly i feel for her
she would be too freaked out to even talk to me ever again.
every time i see her my heart skips a beat.
she takes my breathe away seeing her walk down the street.
when she talks to me i get surprised and can't think of a reply!
the only reason she talks to e is because we used to be best friends when we where like 4
i was going to send her a message on facebook telling her the truth but, i couldn't bring myself to click send.
i have only ever told my best friend about this and he now thinks i'm a bit mad in the head
now i can only imagine what her reaction will be.
but i love her too much to stalk her.
because thats bad.
also i i was stalking her and she found out my problems would get even worse and i would probably die
not physicaly but inside.
if she ever said somthing like "i hate you" or "you will never be with me"
i would be dead inside, and probably kill myself seeing i would be just and empty shell
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