LIFE SUCKS

worn out

I am a 41 year old male. Married my high school sweetheart at 20, we have a beautiful 19 year old girl. My mother died of cancer when I was 7 so I was 'raised' by my father - a retired Marine Corps colonel. I became a golf professional at 20. I lived that lifestyle of alcohol abuse, gambling, out all night. My wife had no choice but to leave. I continued my self-abusive behavior, but never had a drink around my daughter and paid my child support. When I was 30, I was sick of this phony lifestyle so I went back college and earned 2 bachelors degree and a master's degree in economics.
My last semester, I had a seizure and was told I had a malignant brain tumor that was incurable and will kill me. I went through all of the surgeries and chemotherapy.
I lost most of my analytical and quantitative abilities because of brain damage, so I have no chance of working in the statistics or economics field. I am on disability and medicare and work partime at a golf course. I experience frequent seizures and severe memory loss. I have just found out I have an aggresive strain of Staph infection in my spine and brain.
I cannot drive because of seizures, I have no assets. I have nothing to offer society. I'm just ready to get this life over with.