So I'm not quite sure what's wrong with me but maybe someone can help me out. It would appear that I am incapable of feeling happiness. I recently got in a car accident and messed up my shoulder and thought I was going to need surgery. I just found out I wont need surgery and my shoulder is healing just fine which is great news. I'm 20 years old, taking six classes in college and working 40 hours a week plus doing physical therapy for my car accident injuries, and I still managed to get my grades on the Dean's List at my college. I recently went on a couple of dates, and I had fun but I don't see them going anywhere, which is ok because I don't have time for a gf anyway. All of this is good news or fun stuff but I am so indifferent to all of it.
When I found out I was on the Dean's List, I told my grandmother (whom I live with) and she was so proud and happy. And I was just so...not...I didn't care at all. And that's how everything in my life has become. If bad things happen I'm like, "Well I knew this would happen." And when good things happen, I don't feel anything. And I know that's wrong, so if anyone has any suggestions besides therapy (which I cant afford) I would greatly appreciate it. | |
It seems your pushing yourself hard as well, why?
With your accident, and low mood, trust me distraction and keeping busy is good, but burnout is worse. I had a lighter load to carry then you by the sounds of it, but because of circumstance and a little bad luck, i crashed and burned. Not all at once, just gradually over the years the spirit of life just leaves you. And there is no way back from my situation or many other peoples situations either, despite what some would have you believe. So take my advice, prevent it from happening by any means necessary, for your own sake.
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