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hitting rock bottom

Posted by G.A at May 9, 2012
Tags: 2012 May  Sexuality

I am from a shitty ,close minded country in middle east, was raised in a very conservative and strict religious family.what makes it worse is that I'm Gay,I knew I was gay ever since I was 10 years old, it's been always hard for me living among homophobic,I was such an angry teenager coz I couldn't figure out why I was gay , I hid myself carefully till I left that shit hole when I turned 21, I didn't finish my collage education coz I couldn't afford it, I worked in so many different kinds of jobs ,slept on the street,I can't tell anyone that I am gay, I am 28 years old now and I feel like i didn't establish anything ,I was running from who I am my entire life,I still can't accept the fact that I am gay and I also can't stand it any longer,my closet is shrinking ,I wanna be ok with who I am, I wanna tell everyone that I am gay and get it over with, recently I started losing my self-esteem. I no longer can stay in china due to regulations changing , I have nowhere else to go to,I never wanna go back to that place, being gay is illegal there,they execute gays , I don't wanna be killed for who I am , I tried to get to the U.S.A but my applications got denied,I tried Canada but it's got rejected as well,I have nowhere else to go to. What the F;;K should I do? it's like the whole world is standing against me.


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By at 09,May,12 12:00

Good day queer in a box, do you work at a stop and shop? Do you make gay squishies all day? Oh poor ole chap!!!! Maybe you should move to the gay usa! San Francisco would be the place for you!! You could be the san francisco treat!!!!! I know of a gay fudge packing midget there that you could hook up with. You could put it in limp, and when it gets hard you can listen for his ribs tocrack!!! Doesnt that sound great mate? Leave and move bloke, it is the only chance you have. GOD SAVE THE QUEEN
By G.A at 10,May,12 01:31

My sexuality doesn't define who I am.

By at 09,May,12 12:02

By anonymous at 09,May,12 17:43

Bangkok is a great city. I buy my gold, silk, and women there.
By G.A at 10,May,12 01:32 Fold Up

U got it all wrong,I am not Chinese,I just live in china. plz read carefully
By anonymous at 10,Jun,12 19:13

Excuse me, you dont have to answer this if you're not comfortable, but are your orgins in the Muslim related countrys as well.
Im having some diffiqulties with the societys beliefs.

By anonymous at 09,May,12 13:04

how come people who don't agree with u are deemed closed minded? everyone has different opinions on right and wrong.. maybe u want to have incest, am i closed minded if i think its wrong? maybe u want to have sex with kids.. am i closed minded if i think its wrong?

people just have different outlook than u, deal with it stop saying everyone who doesn't agree with u is "shitty" "closed minded" and "homophobic"
By G.A at 10,May,12 01:56

when i said that people in my country are close minded i didn't mean they just disagree with me, being gay is illegal in my country, and the sentence for that is death,if anyone knows that ur gay u will be bashed,picked on, bullied and worse u could be wound up dead .women r not allowed to work nor even finish their education.people use drugs all the time, bribe and never do anything for their future .
it's not about me being gay ,it's about them being uneducated,uncivilized close minded excuse me if i don't wanna be part of such a country
By anonymous at 20,Mar,13 06:20

you really have a limitted thought problem solving problem,
What would you do if you overcome youre homosexual desire,and actually looked at youre self,long and hard,,,you better take a seet first,hahaha,,now you see the hollow heartless self desiring bellatted vainitty impulsive person youve became,
I honestly think homos are very passive aggresive,self manalipulating ,callculative opurtunitty scavengers,sheltering in a safetty in numbers,pack like ,animalistik envirnment
In all casas of peodiphile child murders and rape,homos are the highest majoritty,Concluding,asian law is trying to protect children from homo mutant GAY hahaha,,,

By anonymous at 09,May,12 17:42

Go to San Francisco. I'm sure Nancy will welcome you with open arms. We need more gay, hairy, arabic men in California. You can wear Village People clothes and hang disco balls in your apartment. "Everybody Dance Now!".

By anonymous at 09,May,12 18:43

Sounds like you're in one of those Muslim countries. Where they will torture you or kill you, over a drop of a hat. You need to come to the west, where most people could care less if you are gay. Happy cock sucking!
By G.A at 10,May,12 01:57

I submitted my application to the U.S.A and Canada but it got rejected for finance reasons.i don't think i would ever be able to get there

By anonymous at 09,May,12 21:54

move to the Philippines

By anonymous at 28,May,12 04:03

Have you tried applying for asylum because of persecution against gays in your home-country?

By Indred Cold at 01,Sep,12 19:29

I sympathize with your situation. I wish that I had some good advise for you, but I don't. However I just wanted to express my support to you. It is so unfortunate that people are so closed minded. I wish you the very best of luck, I hope it all works out and you live a safe and happy life. I think you are a good man, and you deserve to live you life to the fullest. Good luck to you friend, I hope you find your place.

By anonymous at 27,Nov,12 04:13

Why would you not go to Turkey. It's liberal for a middle eastern country.

Or go to Europe undocumented to a English speaking country like uk or Ireland or go to Germany / French where there is tons of middle eastern people

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