LIFE SUCKS : 2010 October

fucking hate my freaking life

am 21 i got many gf that i never meet in-person yea online relationship,when i meet my current gf we went on couple dates and then she traveled to finish her college,cuz there family is so freaking rich,i love her so much every weekend she hang out with her friends but i don't cuz i don't have real friends i like to hang out with them,and am so freaking poor i cant even afford half the awesome places she go to.

am so freaking depressed i don't know what to do and i really study my best so i can graduate this semester i dnt know why i feel fucking bad but maybe cuz i never got out our of home only for school.i really hate my life all i do is sit on my room listen to blue music in the dark cuz that what i feel inside me deep dark whole


thanks for reading my letter maybe i will write another one some other time


my name is : M

Whats the point? Why not end it all?

I'm 50 in a couple of months. That’s not depressing in its self except for the fact that I have achieved nothing in my 50 years. Nothing! A total looser, I have no abilities and no enthusiasm. Self pity? - Probably. But fucking miserable with it.
Ok why? What’s the story? Right now, no job, no money, not signed on to the dss or anything. Have a business that I cant run properly, things go wrong continually, finances are terrible, for every bit of business I win, the government fine me for something else, either late filing penalties or CIS scheme fines for not telling them I haven’t earnt anything . They keep back 20% of every bit of business I do, because I've never claimed it, they should owe me! But oh no, the fines probably out weigh it. My laptop PC with all data on it for 10 years including all bids and business work has gone wrong, completely fucked, wont even boot up so I've lost access to two personal email accounts, three business accounts and my two kids accounts. Not to mention ten years of digital photos and 20 days of continuous itunes music. Used to be in IT telecoms and finance, fluked into that by the way, because I have no education -nicked a car and wrote it off when I was 16 so never took any exams, put myself in hospital for 6 months with serious internal injuries. Anyway, got into IT when a neighbour suggested I try for a computer operator job where he was working in a geophysical exploration company, so with is influence, I got the job. Worked ...

not bad but to me it sucks!

I am 14.....and to me my life sucks......I have never had a boyfriend.....never been kissed......I cut myself.....The boy i like likes my best friend.....but i dont give a fuck bout my life anymore so screw this!!!!

life suck suck nd suck.!!!!!!!!!!

so, here i am. 18 year old guy, em in 2nd year( engineering student?, em in worst colleage any1 can be in.we get 10 assinments, 5 projects and 10 tests every month so em very busy with all that stuff, due to my bad performence my grades r going lower nd lower. i have joined an orgenization named AIESEC, everyday i get lot of work frm them too. em that busy that i dont even hav time to sleep, i am stressed. my parents r angry with me, i am out of money, have no friends in class.
i work for free. manytimes i hav to pay from my own pocket for that orgenization. due to my colleage and that orgenization i hav no more personal life, dont hav time for older friends and girlfriend. i really want to skip some work but thats totally impossible. all i can do is quit working for that orgenization, but then i will become a looser. i really dont know how to balance things.............................at all my life is been fucked by my ownself.i dont knw wt i should do, dont even hav tim to text my friends.many of my classmates r my enemy, they dont like me neither do i. many times i wanted to suicide,but i dont hav courage to do so, may be coz i luv my mom nd dont wnt to liv her.
i liv in a hostel, my roommates sucks. bloody pieces of shit. i hate almost every1 around me. i am getting more annoying day by day. al last i all i can see in my future is darkness............ :(

LIFE SUCKS BIG JOHNSON

life sucks big johnson because all my life iv'e been called patty "the fatty"! i'm sick and tired of getting called names for my weight, and my dumb looking face. I have never kissed a girl in my life, never had a girlfriend, never had sex. but maybe there is some hope for me out there somewhere.

It's all downhill from here

I've read some of the stories on here and my life definitely doesn't suck ass as much as a lot of these people, I'm still on here bitching about my life. This is pathetic, but so am I so who gives a fuck.

It's not that something really traumatic has happened to me. I've not been severely wronged in any way. I've had my share of bad things and live with some fucked up memories, but nothing way out of hand. It's just that I don't got 'it'.

I was born into a successful family. My friends are successful. My brother is successful. Me...I'm dumb. I'm useless. I'm 36, right when it's supposed to happen. I'm single and work white collar jobs, but I have no money. Everything I have was given to me because I'm too stupid to succeed in the jobs that I've had. And I've had many because once it becomes apparent to my employers that I'm incompetent I'm cut. Also, I know that I'm too dumb to make a living the traditional way, so I chase get rich quick schemes. I've tried multi-level marketing which not only was dumb, but turned me into a deceptive scum bag as well. Trying to push a pyramid scheme on to the few friends that I had only cost me these friends, in addition to the few thousand dollars I wasted on a dishonest plot to 'retire early' in hopes of escaping having to work. Yea right.

Because I'm dumb and I know it I carry myself that way and give off that energy. Hence, women are definitely not attracted to me (except the fat ones who would date anyone...

My mom makes my life a liveing a hell

I had the most typical normal life a mid-western teenager could have untill about 1 year ago.My moms dad was "dieing" so my mom had a midlife crisis where she thought she need to do more with her life besides being a housewife.Which is the craizest thing considering that my grandparents were once almost arrested for assualting my mom when me and my little sister were in the room. They constantly are mean to us and abused my mom when she was little but she still loves them anyways, well most of the time. Then she randomly decided one day that my dad was too mean to my spoiled brat of a little sister who gets everything she wants because shes gorgeous and im ugly. Then she decided that my dad was sexually abuseing me. She "claimed" it happens at night and she saw it happen two years ago on camping trip that my sister and mom were both on and in the same tent as us.My little sister never said a thing about this lie.My dad has never touched me in a wrong way not once in my life not then not never.My mom never memtioned it then but apparently she just randomly remembered at that very moment.I GOT TONS OF ANGRY PHONE CALLS from my grandparents useing creative words to describe these incidents.Some how this made up crap was my fault.Then she decided she was going to divorce my dad and use all the sex abuse crap to get all my dads money, my college fund and the farm. Can you say best mom ever? She spread lies to all her friends about me being spoiled, mean, stupid, and letting my...

It's the big time, indeed.

Hi everyone.

I guess most of you are from America, or at least from a anglo-saxon country. I'm not. I'm from morocco, a muslim country south Spain. Since a very early age, I discovered how society is unfrair. How weak people does not mean anything to others. I was weak (But I'm not anymore.) And the worst among all of this, how gay people are indesirable !

I am gay, and I am atheist, two things that the muslims hate over anything else. There is no need to tell how people mocked my effeminacy. Neither how my father was about to go crazy when he learned that I was homosexual when I got teenage. And how he tried to make my life a hell. He's still trying, with more difficulty because I caught him talking to a teenage girl (He's 53 !). I'm blackmailing him : if he does not leave me alone, I will tell the police, and this works everytime. And this if fun !

There are so many other sucking things in my life, but I don't have time enough.

Hope my message does not suck too much !

If there is some advise I could give, this would be : find how sucking life could me funny ! That makes us more clever, and more objective, yes, I swear !

10/ 17/2010

that was the day my brother would have turned 47 if he hadn't been crushed to death and scattered on three different city blocks on 9/11.

The solution is a lost treasure for people like you in the world

Today in society if you ask anyone about their life then you'll probably here these words "life sucks" or "life isn't fair" you even get this one "god doesn't like me". Now you are most likely wondering that nooo not everyone's life is upside down, well you are in for a suprise. Even the man with money, with a real money making business, with a beautiful house, beautiful wife or girlfreind, beautiful kids and a garage full of BMW's and benz, ASK him! are you really living it up? are you living the life you've always wanted? is there comfort and peace in your life? The answer will be: No. 1hy? despite him being a multi million dollar man he can't get sleep at night except by taking pills, cause there's so much crap in his life, so many problems and depressions. Yes from the outside he has a big smile on his face and he's going to parties every week but I SWEAR he does not have peace and comfort in his life. So having money isn't the solution to the problem. Shocking? Its cause everyone has problems in their life, everyone is liveing a depressing life, they just want to be free from all the crap in life.Somebody loses their job, loses the love of their life, gets into car accident which in result multiple problems are created, somebody's mom or dad has cancer and the list goes on and on. Sometimes problems of other people might seem small compared to yours, it might seem like its not a big deal but to every individual the gravity of his problem isn't what you might think...

Nothing Much, Perhaps . . .

I've read quite a few of these stories. Mine, overall, does not compare to any extent to many on here. Life and the experiences in it are relative, however, are they not? The extent of one's misery seems proportional to the extent toward which one is effected by the situation they find themselves in. For this reason, it is said that many a very spiritual person can overcome the kind of calamities that would certainly befall and overwhelm most others. They have learned how to rise above and beyond the trifles which others are claimed by.

I wouldn't, again, imagine that my situation would come across as "oh so calamatous" to too many people. As I continue to take stock in my life up to this point, however, I continue to find myself saying and feeling, "This sucks. Man, my life sucks. This has NOT turned out all that great." I guess the good thing about this is that it has definitely decreased whatever fear of death I may have had to a great extent. At this point - and as really has been the case for many, many years now - I look very much forward to it; often openly fantasizing about it.

My problems, as is the case with many, simply stem from love - or, rather, lack of it. Well, love in the "significant other" sense. I make this distinction because love in the significant other sense is, I admit, a specific kind of love that can, but does not necessarily have to include religious or overt spirituality. I digress in mentioning this, however.

Alone

I walk around drained of all emotion. I dont even know me anymore. I long for someone to love me and to want me. I wake from miserable nightmares only waking into yet a more painfull one, reality. Pain rebounds off my shell and hits me not in the eyes but in the heart. It tear me apart leaving only my machanical self. I have no one to talk to which is why I presume I turn to pages such as these to openly express how much pain is held within. Ultimitly, life sucks. I dont want to be here anymore.

Dead inside

Ever since my mom died life has not quite got better. I fuck up every relationship with any girl I get. Just this year alone I have lost two girls that really mattered to me. They left becouse bottomline I feel like shit. Nervous all the time. "She dont like me" or "This wont last so break i up! Do it now!" The last girl really ment something. With her life felt so good. But my fears took over. I hate myself and curse the way i acted back when it all got fucked up. The passion dies when nervousness and shit blends in to the picture. I knew that and still couldnt do shit about it. Maybe it wouldnt last anyway but atleast it would be a little longer. I feel so alone. Cry every single night about it. I begin to lose hope. Broken inside and messed up. I miss her and still want to let her go. It tears me apart.

I'm a 17 year old guy. I just feel depressed all of the time. I'm openly gay to everyone except for my family. I hate living with the stress of my family not knowing that I'm gay, but I don't know how to tell them. My dad is always yelling at me for something I did. I absolutely hate living here, but I have no where else to go so I'm stuck living here. I hate that I don;t have a boyfriend. I started talking to one of these guys that I like but he told me that he didn't want a relationship. Now he has a boyfriend and and it makes me more depressed because first he told me he didn't want a relationship at all and now he is in one. Another guy I was talking to I didn't like at first, but then as we talked more I started to really like him. Then after a while, and I thought he liked me too, he told me that he has too much going on in his life for a boyfriend. I guess I can understand but I jsut feel like every guy is going to reject me.

life sucks

ok Well I got married at 16 stay with him even when he cheated on me had my first child 20 years afer we got married she died at birth had my 2nd child 2 years after she died who is now 11 years old and i love him he is the best thing ever but come to find out my husband is a child molster used our son to get little girls to our house when i was at work so he could rape them I found out and kicked him out and the cops will not do nothing to him for molesting the kids cause the girls dont have dates of when it took place so we r getting a divorce and he will not leave the place he lives out back in a small little house and every day we have to look at him he took my money i had and put it where i cant get it he makes us feel like we r the bad ones and that he did nothing wrong my son cries at night asking why his dad did this I dont know what to tell him because I dont even know why he is a sicko so life at this point sucks big time and the cops dont even care he hurt 3 little girls so life sucks big time

I don’t see any stories of pedophile here, only gays. Well if you gays think you have a raw deal in life, try being a pedophile like myself. Life is total hell believe me. At least being gay is not illegal in most parts of the world and being gay is acceptable to a small percentage of the world population while being a pedophile is only acceptable by those who are pedophiles themselves, probably less than 0.01 percent of the world population. Like gays we also didn’t ask to be pedophiles and if we had a choice, at least 99% of us would choose to be normal.

Life is all about choices they say. Oh yea, if only. Well if I could choose, I would have chosen never to be born or exist rather than being a pedophile. As some other contributors here, I am looking forward to death and I hope there is no life after death or reincarnation to have to live another hellish life like this. If I knew for sure there was no life after death or that I might have to come back to live another life if I commit suicide, I would end my life today.

Sir

I was sexually abused as a child by my father - although one time event and not too serious. I am gay and married to a woman (in the closet). My brother-in-law was murdered and a month later my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, I became an alcoholic/drugs too and then my wife had an affair with me and 2 toddlers at home. Life is wonderful!

I'm deeply in love with a chick who is a bi-polar, mulit- personality. She loves me but doesn't want me around most of the time. So I'm always feeling rejected.
Then along comes this other chick who loves me bunches. She buys me shit and caters to my every need. But I'm still lovin' the first one. The second one demands that I blow off the first one or she pulls out.
It's a loose, loose thing. In the end I know I'll loose both of them. I'll probably be better off but I'll be alone. I hate to be alone.
I just can't get past lovin' the first one.

My life super sucks!!!

Yes, I'd like a supersized cosmic slap in the face. Thank you life. I hate my life right now so bad I don't even know where to begin. I'll start with I'm a single parent of two special needs children, one of which has mild autism, adhd, odd, and ocd. The other has adhd. My hands have been full for almost 12 years. When my oldest was nearing 3 is when I noticed he was not like other children his age, so I took him to the doctor. I put him in daycare to socialize. I found a developmental specialist. And put him in speech therapy and behavior management. The doctor said he suspected autism for a while but was unable to tell me that until I brought it up. And so started my plan to fix him while he was young so he would have a much more normal life as an adult. My husband lived with blinders on and refused to beleive anything was wrong with his child and that he needed "his ass beat off" to make him "act right". Then little by little we drifted apart. I needed his support and he decided to just not come home till bed time or untill he was good and ready. For a year. And during this time we had our second child. I was on the internet or on the phone when he did come home because at least they talked back. Then I didnt bother to get off anymore cause the silence and the hurt was too much to deal with. His whole family was against me. His mother said I was going to make my son into a "drug addicted retard". And his grandmother's made alot of comments like "well I'm gald he is do...

super sucks

I've been separated for 4 yrs. I have one child with autism and another with adhd. I grew up in an abusive home. I just lost my house and car in a flood. Then, being a girl, I thought my estranged husband would come to help in some way. But no, and tells me he wants a divorce because I didn't go back, pull the kids out of school, and find new doctors for them. Well excuse the hell out of me for not moving 7 hours away with no money and no car and no help. I'm completely lost right now and just trying to make my kids feel safe and some kind of normal after what they have been through. In the last month I've lost everything, including the man I've waited for, for so long, to show me we were important to him. And he says he is tired of feeling guilty for whore chasing. I can't wrap my mind around how all of this is my fault. Because he didn't do anything wrong by not supporting me and our children , because he didn't beleive our son had autism. So because he didn't beleive it, it didn't exist. So now I'm 34, homeless, on foot, and a single parent. My life super sucks.