I moved to Australia last year to be with my long time boyfriend. Well the opening line should tell you how stupid I actually am. I left my very close family, all my friends and my FANTASTIC job...not to mention, my car. Now I am stuck in a country I HATE, yes HATE...Australia is full of BOGANS (White trash country racist hicks, with no teeth, bad hygene etc). There is actually nothing appealing about this place at all. I can't find a job in the industry I want to be in although I probably have much more experience so I'm working as a receptionist... I kid you not. Now i am all about life experience's and starting at the bottom but this place really gets me down. I came from a very wealthy family and I've never been a snob until now.
I hate being broke,I hate public transport, I hate the places I work and having little 19 year old girls who can't spell as my superiors. I am a perfectionist and always give my best even if it is just answering the phone and being nice to someone. I have always been positive, I can see the bright side in everything infact I've described myself as the opposite of a "manic depressive" because I used to be happy 90% of the time. I am so so so sick of being broke I haven't had any disposable income in about 10 months. I'm sick of eating badly or barely at all because I can't even afford fruit.
The man I moved here for is sick of me. We fight and argue constantly I'm not too sure if he even likes me anymore let alone loves me. I don't have a support system. I speak to my family less and less because I don't want them to know how unhappy I am. I want to go home, but I cant. I'm in so much debt at home because of coming to this stupid place.
I just needed to vent. Thanks for being a place I could do this. | |
It's not your own country isint half full cousin-fucking rednecks.
Good luck!
To the horrible people on here you need to remember this.When we dont have anyone to look after our emotional wellbeing we start to emotionally fight back to survive.
We do and feel things that arent healthy or right simply because we feel so bloody bad about ourselves.
It is unfair to have no money left over to enjoy a few treats in life.Millions of people live this way, including myself.
It is a horrible fact of modern life that we live to work just to keep a roof over our heads.
If you cant even afford to eat properly then this will affect your emotional stability.
You may have come across to some people as bigoted and judgemental but this is not the whole picture of you.
I live in the UK and I can assure you that I meet a lot of people who have bad teeth too!!!
Sitting on a bus I will also encounter people with body odour and foul breath!!!You will find this everywhere in the world.
Im no snob either and was brought up in a very unstable abusive poor home.My mom had to beg a priest for money to feed us when we were tiny and I have 4 sisters.My dad was an alcoholic and spent all the food money on booze.
Now I can identify with poor people, with all people who have and who have not but I hate public transport too!!!
I dont always want to mix with people who smell bad even though I feel sorry for them. Its just personal preference and it doesnt make you or I a snob.
We arent all equal and I will stick to that belief as I know Im better than a rapist or a murderer or a violent thug who thinks its ok to hassle me on the bus when Im minding my own business.
Its just not a good idea to label a whole continent of people as being smelly!!!!
You are going to attract negative comments as a result.
Having said that this is a site to rant on so if people dont like what you say and feel thats their problem, we are all bigoted in one way or another.
Like you i dont talk to my family much as I dont want then to know how unhappy i am either.
If you are so unhappy with your life you CAN change it.
You CAN go home and deal with the debt. I know all about debt as my ex partner almost caused me to lose my home with his spending.
Debt can be managed, you dont have to run away from it.
So you can choose to go home and have your family around you if thats what you want to do.
If you dont want to leave your partner then you can do two things.
Find a better job!!!!! That wont be too difficult as you are well educated.Then maybe you can drive instead of using public transport. I have lots of people I know who are not snobs but also hate public transport too.Its unreliable, takes too long to get you where you need to go and you might end up sitting next to a pervert!!! Im not joking, this has happened to me several times on the buses in the UK!!!
Its also an idea to talk to your partner and ask him to go to counselling with you to sort out the problems in your relationship.
If you dont start to communicate you will end up splitting up anyway.
Human beings are like babies really, we need nurture and we need to feel someone is looking out for us so we can do the same for them.
Because you feel that no one is looking out for you then you are becoming bitter and critical of others.
Thats normal. However its not healthy so you need to change your life and better your situation so that you lose this bitterness. It will drag you down eventually and then you will have lost the battle.
Only you know if your life is so bad you must change it.On the other hand if you just want to vent your feelings as we all do then I hope you feel a bit better.
My ex husband was one of the most tolerant and patient people I knew but he too had issues with people he worked with who didnt pull their weight and came to work stinking of yesterdays sweat.
Life does suck sometimes, for all of us. Good luck
If you don't have someone in your life that will hold you, longing that you'll find rest in their arms, then your going to find reason upon reason to get upset. I recommend getting involved in a local community, like a church (not a money grabbing one). Maybe you can meat people who will help you get your priorities straight, and focus upon something that you may be able to obtain.
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