Hi im 20 years old i've pretty much had a normal childhood, and guess till 15 everything was normal till i discovered i can never get an erection and well i knew i had one testicle, still not sure why ive had 10 surgeries total since i was born for reasons that are still unknown to me even though i've asked for my records. when i was a kid i was very interested in sports but coud'nt join because of my surgeries, i was going for wresting and soccer also coudn't join the military. and up till later when in my teens i tried having sex with girls and she laughed and she stilled made the attempt to try and it was a complete failure all around and a horrible expierenced for me. Besides that i failed college i couldnt keep up due to financial reasons. well that pretty much me i wonder what future hold for me i know kids and marraige is out of the question and my only family is my mother once she gone im alone i have other family members that i probally see once every three years and adoption is out of the question, i don't want to ruin some kids life, and if i get to 50 years old im considering death by any way possible i don't want to be that old guy that gets alzheimer and people have to take care of him and treat him like a baby. but this is it im gonna try to succeed in life even though im doing framing right now which is pretty much building houses but life not over for me yet im gonna try something only because that what my mother would want of me she the reason i exist and the only reason i had a shot at going to college and nothing would make her proud than seeing me graduate im not gonna stop because i feel my life far from over even though it sucks its not over till its over. | |
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