LIFE SUCKS

i seem to have misplaced everyone that i used to know!

How careless I hear you laugh and shout! In 1984 when I was diagnosed with m.s. my life was seething with an abundant amount of friends! My m.s.changed from being able to carry on as normal to relapsing remitting. That was in 1995 and I continued to enjoy the company of my many friends. A few years down the line it then changed again to progressive my husband coped with this change by shouting at me that i was not doing things correctly. After a few years of this verbal abuse I could no longer take anymore and so in 2011 we divorced. I then set about trying to rebuild my life! Unfortunately a great deal of my friends were couples who we both Knew and although my ex-husband had moved 230 miles away they did not want to be seen to take sides and therefore they would not socialize with either of us.It was then that I found out how difficult it is to go out in the evening to meet new people when you are alone! I have since become more and more depressed and now I am seriously considering suicide.I have seen councillors changed my antidepressants acquired a voluntary part-time job try to meet people through the internet, but have had very little luck! I still feel very depressed. I know feel good stories are required but mine, unfortunately, is not one of those! Perhaps other sufferers have similar stories?