I'm Jamie. 18 year old faggot (literally) who takes out his Insecurity's at his friends. Good looking, good grades, and sociable up to the point that I hate people getting close to me. See my dad use to hit, and yell at my mum, sister, and me. I guess since she always left him then got back with him I never got to know anyone due to all the moving. Only close friends I have I'm sure just pitty me for my sister since she pretty much ignores me. I lost my friends because I would always joke about their sexuality (lots of friends that are girls) and now I'm alone again. Wasting my youth in my room sleeping all day. Worst part of being good looking is that guys only want to fuck, to them I'm just another hole. I'm pretty sure my "rancid" personality and small city will result in me giving up and working at some dead end job & ending up alone. My dads family pretty much hates me for sideing with my mum (she permanitly left him) and all her family is dead or hates the sight of me. I'm so damn insecure about my sexuality it rots me from the inside. I hate it and hate me. I keep wanting to just slit my throat and be done with this bs but I can't yet, I need to wait a couple years and leave town to vancouver so I could tie a brick to my legs and jump off a boat. It will look like I ran off somewhere. No body no problem right? | |
Have you ever considered talking to a therapist? All the questions you have- your sexuality, insecurities, and thoughts of suicide, well, sounds like you need someone to talk to that could give you advice that's solid. I'm no psychologist, but you obviously need help...
Please look into talking with someone- you've got your whole life ahead of you- DON'T THROW IT AWAY!
Be strong kid!
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