i have been with my boyfriend for three month ,and i spend almost two month acting as some other boys'girlfriend .We met on the network ,and that moment i was just find my ex cheating and playing my love , then i ask him to be my boy friend.I never know him before ,he was shocked by me ,but finally and without any struggle he falls love with me .Until now i still think he is so easy to get ,haha , but i know he is a good boy ,very very good boy,so i always thinking he is not like many guys i met .And the life with him is very peaceful,we rarely quarrel,he always offline so i cant see him at most time.He always whether i am angry with him ,but i didn't ,I think i dont love him very much ,i dont care if he is here or not.He is really not a good boyfriend ,he is quiet,shy(he said he is very shy talking to girls) and obvious dont have any experience and i dont have much experience too.We dont have words to talk ,i feel we are like an old couple,have no passion.I dont know why i still with him or he still with me , perhaps i am too lonely ,or maybe i think he really loved me.
I am not a good girlfriend which is obvious,thats why i feel guilty and always try to cherish him.But i cheat a lot, i promised never tell lies to him and i hate lies very very much,i am so selfish i know it.Everytime he talked to me about the future,and asked me to wait him,i promised very easily because i know we dont have a future.
I hope he is just playing a game with me just like my ex bf did, so i can get out of the guilty.During these time ,i met a man 4 years elder than me ,i was captivated by him insane,he is not so good and he is a dude as he told to me.But i like the way we talking ,and everything of him.Lucky or unfortunately, he left me and delete me without any explanation.I just dont know what happened , he said he love me everything and i can feel that,but whatever he dropt me .
You cannt know this feeling, i want to ask him everyday, but there is no excuse,we are just some net friend.And even he said he like me for thousand times ,he never asked me to be his girlfriend, he seems suffered a lot and becaming realitic.He dont want to try those kind relationship i know and so do i.
back to my boyfriend ,i think he is a poor guy to met his first girlfriend like me,someone is disloyal and not attracted by him at all. What can i do now?I dont want to change anything ,nor do i like to keep going on. I am so lonely,everyday,everynight.I am seeking hopelessly,or should I stop dreaming having love?
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People like you are the reason why so many people have a tough time with life.
Do yourself a favor and the boy you're with- move on. You're not happy. And he won't be happy when he finds out that you have been cheating on him! Why are you together? Is it for financial reasons? You don't like being alone? What is it that keeps you from being honest with yourself and with him?
It's better to be lonely than to be living a lie. Do the right thing, and cut him loose, so that you both may have a chance at finding happiness!
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I think you are right,i am not happy,this is not what i want,and i made a fault, I want to do anything to make up.I just don't want to hurt anyone,i will try to find out a better solution,thanks for your concern,you are a good person.
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