Have you ever realised that you don't know one person who you could tell anything to?
I don't form strong friendships, because I can't, even if I really care about someone, I don't call or text unless It's to go out or to a club, because I don't think anyone would want to bother with me.
The second I sleep with a guy, I go cold and want to see them less, and have been accused of using an ex boyfriend for sex.
I find it so hard to connect with people, even those I know I can trust just because If I tell them about my past i know the majority of people wouldn't and don't understand.
Girls don't bother to try and get too close, guys do then I end the relationships (for good reasons) and its just me.
But I'm all smiles and make up and 'healthy' so no one sees it.
I feel into depression from when I was 16 to 19 years old, and almost ended it all.I'm scared If i keep feeling this isolated it will all come back.
Anyway, thanks for hearing my sob story, have a nice day. | |
Hey sweetie, you're not alone- I can count on ONE hand ALL my girlfriends. That's right. I was NO sorority queen! Infact, always been kind of a loner. Nothing wrong with that though- and you will find too, that perhaps your happier being by yourself? But if you think that your detachment from people is abnormal, then perhaps you should see your doctor. They can perform tests (usually blood tests...) which may reveal that you are lacking in something? Depression, anxiety, paranoia, are all isolating factors that can seriously damage the psyche... It may help, and it certainly can't hurt???
If the doc says that everything is normal and all is A-GO, then maybe you are just a black sheep???
Nothing wrong with being a black sheep, going against the grain, away from the crowd, and nothing wrong with being wierd either!
Eccentric people add color to the world:)
Thank GOD- we are all different!
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