I'm a 37 year old Asian Canadian man who lived from ages 2 to 14 in Canada but went back to Asia at 14, and then went back to Canada for university at 17, and then went back to Asian after graduation. English is my native language but people treat me like I can't speak English and try to correct my English, or talk really loud and slow to me, or listen to me with a patronizing look of pity as if I'm retarded. I can't speak the language of my parents well and I don't want to improve; it doesn't seem worth it. I'd rather be lower middle class in Canada than a millionaire in Asia. People in Asia think I'm mentally retarded or a sellout. I feel my mind is being ripped apart whenever someone makes wrong assumptions about me. I'm a nerd and hate being a nerd. I have short legs and long arms and a big head. Although I've been lifting weights for seven years and can squat 225 and deadlift 315, I'm still short and skinny. When I go to a new gym people assume I'm a beginner who can't use the free weights without getting hurt. I've never had a girlfriend, and never had a real friend. Most of the people who I thought were my friends had just been using me for money or as a "last resort" person to hang out with because no-one else was available. I don't have social skills and I get so nervous when I talk to people. In my 20s I had sex with prostitutes whenever i had money. I stopped going to prostitutes at age 30, but in the last year I paid for sex with girls (non pros) I met online. I did that about 8 times. I worked as a translator and editor for 10 years (7 of those years from home) making a crap wage. I live with my evil, stupid, backward parents who abused me when I was young. On the bright side, I'm trying to start an online business. Hopefully my business is successful and I will have the time to improve my body and social skills and finally make some friends. | |
you turned to prostitute wow get check see if you are clean cause
Id feel sorry for whoever will be your gf
why should i hide my race?
going to prostitutes isn't such a big deal.
they get checked for diseases regularly.
i feel sorry for anyone who has to look at you or talk to you.
it would be wrong if you are married because you are being unfaithful.
u are sick and u will not get a decent woman trust me so might as well go marry one of those prostitute and help them off the street... u see nothing wrong with it so why not asked them to be your gf... u gook!!!
God can forgive if you repent.
Prostitutes need help even more why would you treat them like that or encourage what they do? you should have help them instead than using them.
Im sure you have a heart and its never too late to repent
God have mercy on you sir. god Bless
God can forgive if you repent.
Prostitutes need help even more why would you treat them like that or encourage what they do? you should have help them instead than using them.
Im sure you have a heart and its never too late to repent
God have mercy on you sir. god Bless
I find that men with "means" meaning "money" never seem to have a shortage of "trophy" girlfriends on their arms... But, as we all know, or will find out eventually, all the money in the world will not buy you happiness- or love. So, be happy with who you are, how you look, and strive to be a good person. Eventually, the right gal will come along- prostitute or not...
Good luck with your "online" business! How exciting! Focus on that- and everything will fall into to place-
Cursed
Focus on getting your own independence so you can move out of your parents house. Keep doing some part-time as a translator/editor on the side if you need extra money.
Then accept who you are. You cannot change the fact that you are short and, after 7 years, it is safe to say that you will remain skinny.
Forget the girls you met online. If you payed them for sex, they ARE pros. Work on your social skills instead. Join a club, do volunteer work, whatever works for you.
Use being a nerd for your advantage. Your post sounds witty, so I'm sure you have a good sense of humor. Some girls think shy-smart-nerds can be cute.
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