I'd be 25 soon and I just ponder on how the last three years had been a complete waste.
No one could follow my train of thoughts, I have a job that I don't like because of unexpected circumstances but I had to keep just for the sake of monthly income because I can't find the new one, and some issues in my family.
I'm tired of keep telling myself 'This is one more day passed, you made it.' and living my life just for the sake of living life. I'm tired not to feel jealous to some of my friends. I'm tired of putting up tough face most of the time.
I'm not suicidal or self-cutting type, but really, I feel tired. Just tired. | |
You have idea how lucky you are! if you walk a mile in my shoes and just having GOD alone as my hope and not knowing what the heck to do next, then you would appreciate your life and be grateful with whatever you do have now.
and the fact you are strong to keep your job, you should be very proud of yourself...
Be happy and content of the smallest things cause if you can't be happy and learn to appreciate with what you have now then you aren't deserving of the bigger things in life...
At least u r a coward to take ur own life thanks God. anyway! I'm 41yrs old.I lost my mother when I was 11yrs old(I'm the oldest of 4 sibblings)live with my grandmother who was a total bitch! my father was an asshole! He's dead now, and I made peace with him(long story:)I suffer depression sometimes, but for the most part I'm happy:)I just want to tell u that ur not a boy who's parentent can control for bad or good, u need to move on and live ur own life. stop being a victim of ur past, I was there and it doesn't take anywhere. Your parent treat u the way they did because they were treated even worse probably...regardless of what ever, your life is yours to control throught God who will power u, if u let him. God bless u, ppl around u, and ur surrondings...
Ive had a screwed up miserable life for almost all my life .
I just keep living on though taking one day at a time waiting for death .
F*ck this life .
Not everyone is strong , we are humans not robots !
religion is bullshit .
lifes a bitch !
Since then I held 2 jobs that I hate especially the one I am doing now , I am doing all I can to find another job that I like but all the doors are shut to my face IS IT MY AGE???
I think I have no love in me anymore I only witnessed I my earthly stay that this world is not worth living in, we the humans are the only one who pays to live on earth. there is no such think as justice ...it is all about ˆˆˆˆ
kid,I have pain in my back and feet,so many thing that I dint like in my life,looks so tired an unhappy Why I am alive? maybe I did any thing wrong in my life, really I dont like to face tomorrow.
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