i dont know why the lord put me here | Posted by nan at April 13, 2012 | Tags: 2012 April |
My whole life i was always told i was not smart and probably end up on welfare. i graduated highschool with low grades, and i had two kids. One child is graduating this year and the other is going into highschool.I worked in a factory for about 14 years and just recently i got hurt at work and am out on workers comp. i hired a lawyer and now im being told that the workers comp. doctor wants to lower my check because he thinks im only mild when it comes to being disabled. the moral of this story is all the times i was told that i would be a nothing it seems like their right. i have dreams that i cry over every night. i have so many dreams and i just wish i could pick up and move with my kids and start a new life. i want so much to move and be something someday. i now feel like im in my early 40's and i dont know why God put me here when He didnt give me any talents and i dont know what im here for..i have to act in front of my son to be happy but then when he is not around thats all i do is cry. i dont understand why celebrities have all the talent and good people like myself have none..i dont know what my purpous in life is and i ask Jesus all the time and i get no answers.. i beleive in Him still. | |
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Not being a religious person myself, I can't understand why you keep asking them WHY? when the answer lies within yourself.
Self-knowledge is whats needed here, you need to assess what it is that you want. The next time you're alone, make a nice hot drink, sit in a comfy chair, and with no distractions (damn TVs) ask yourself " What do I want? " and keep asking until you get an answer.
Good Luck
p.s I beat depression a few years ago, I suffered for years prior to that, but in the end, beating it, was EASY. I had it within me to beat depression 'ALL' that time and never know it...Need someone to talk to craftworkcottage@live.com
The name is Paul by the way :-)
oh and before I go, OP if you're reading this, smile. Even if you have to force it, smile because 'depression' hates it when you smile.
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