I'm almost 30 and have had only one girlfriend whom I wasn't really attracted to. Every other girl I meet that we're attractive either rejected me flat out or used me while sneaking around with another guy. It is very hard for me to meet new people because I'm shy. I went to 15 different schools and 8 different jobs. Every time I felt I belonged, I was moved to another school by my ignorant yet overbearing, selfish, cheap parents. Everywhere I didn't fit in they made me stay so I could "focus." Naturally, I focused on smoking weed. They once sent me to a "Christian" junior high school but it turns out Jesus loved me so freaking much it was a place full of expelled gangsters and crazy junior high kids.
Every friend I've ever had tries to make me feel they are better than me, and when I resist hey either reject me or screw me over in some way, like stealing from me or sabotaging my other relationships. They are all jealous of my newfound talents, you see. Yet even that turned out to be a thorn in my side.
I have recently discovered my musical talent but I got no band and little recognition, not to mention money. I'm unable to graduate college because I am unable to classes with a teacher I despise and recently cussed out. Everybody else got gigs and girlfriends and yet I have more innate talent than any of them, but my luck just won't click together.
I also tried to find religion but he church people ended up being just as bad as the normal people, so after my baptism my first thing was to smoke meth and watch porn for 8 hours straight. So now even God has rejected me. I'm not ugly or anything, just cursed from the start. I was born on Friday the 13th and my mom had to have a c-section without anesthesia because we were in a Third World country. Yet sometimes I wonder aloud (in front of my mom) whether I was the wiser for not coming out of her pussy and trying to hang myself on my umbelical cord. I think I knew how shitty my life would turn out. Everything I've tried to accomplish so far has failed...
Fuck my life.
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