I'm 21 years old, I never even kissed a girl or even asked a girl out. I have almost no friends since university started. I am alone, all the time. I spend my life watching the same youtube videos I've already seen, over and over again.
I have struggled with depression, and some anxiety/insomnia/ocd problems since I was 12.
I have no goals in life, I'm only living because I choose not to kill myself. I don't know what I'll do in my life, as it's all so pointless anyway.
What makes me feel like a proper idiot, is that I am intelligent (physics student), I am very good looking and I am also somewhat confident - at least the things I believe I'm good at, but obviously not when it comes to my social behavior (I wouldn't even say I'm confident, I'm just pretty realistic, and can honestly say that I feel I am better at many things than most other people). I'm not a complete retard when it comes to talking with people though, I feel quite fine with it too.
It's the fact that I'm just a completely anti social, sad, fearful, and lazy human being - that's what makes my life shit. I'm not even able to make the commitment to get friends/get a girlfriend/whatever.
Sorry if this is one of my rambling posts, English is not my first language and I still find it hard to express my self with it. | |
i can say with much patience and understanding.. good things will come your way.
good luck
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