I had a happy childhood, great family and great friends! got pregnant at 16 and surprised everyone by really maturing growing up so fast and being an amazing mum but before you knew it along came number 2......then number 3 and finally number 4! It feels like I was 15 one day then before I knew it I've woke up 25 and with 4 kids and hating my life! I just want to run away I love my children but as though they were my brothers and sisters!! I don't feel that bond there its like they just suffocate me! I know this is all my fault I choose to have 4 kids I choose to bring them into this world they didn't ask to be here but I can't help the way I feel.
I can't tell anyone because there is nothing I can do about it so whats the point in moaning its like Im just wishing my life away till the day I don't have to look after them anymore and I can live just for me!
Bad mom maybe if thats the way you choose to see it but I can't help feeling like this! save me! before I drown! | |
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Smh.
I think you should visit your GP, it's possible you suffer from depression. Or maybe could you take a weekend break just on your own, just to clear your head. It is concerning that you love your children like siblings, I am also 25 and have 2 young children but my love for them is indescribable,I never felt love like it before, and I never understood my mum's love for me until I loved my children. But again it could be depression masking your feelings.
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