I am an 18 year old male. Life blows a fucking big one. My mother died at age 6 from a ovarian cancer due to the fact that her father raped her when she was a girl. My step grandfather died three months before that, heart exploded and they found him face first in his breakfast. I have never lived in a place for very long. My dad took out bills in my name and fucked my credit over before I was 16. My father deals drugs and my lying sister put him in jail with the lie that raped her, when she is the biggest whore my town has ever known. My half-sisters family is conspiring to make sure that my father goes to jail for the rest of his life because of pent-up resentment that he broke my half-sister's mother's heart. I hate college and am paying out the ass for it. No relatives can co-sign loans for me next semester because they had to post bail...which he jumped and they lost. I dont talk to my old buddies anymore. My girlfriend is the only thing good in my life and she hates me most days and has anger issues. She ends up punching me then we make out. I have to look at upper-middle class white bitches all day that look at me weird because i mentioned once that I had to pay bills when I was 16. I feel lost and alone and my only passion, writing, seems to be eroding. i drink 3 nights a week and don't care about class. I work 20 hrs a week to pay for tuition on top of 15 hours of classes. My prayers before bed mainly consist of: "Dear God thanks for the beautiful sky and please stop me from going on a shooting rampage".
Life blows a big one. But then again, who cares. | |
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My advice, cut the drinking down as much as you can, re apply yourself to class and work, earn that money to pay your fees man! treat your girlfriend good and try your best help her with her issues. Gradulate and move the hell away from your shitty family, you're clearly a strong person who is having a shit time cos you've made it this far and from you're story you are doing ok.
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