I grew up in a ****** up family. Dad walked out when i was 12 and ever since then I haven't been able to trust men up until 17 when I got into my first real relationship we fell in love and then he just texted my friend saying he no longer had feelings for me out of nowhere. Should have seen that coming?. And all guys have done since is use me for their own fun. Oh almost got raped.. Are all guys idiots? Oh and my ex is now wondering why I've decided not to talk to him anymore. It's pissing him off so he's spreading awful shit around about me. After 8 fing months! I'm going to a Christian university and hate it. I hate all my classes which pretty much consist of bible classes so I'm failing. All I do is want to get wasted. Not allowed to. The guys here are afraid of women or pigs. And now I'm being hit on by old married men. I've stopped taking my anti depressants because I'm sick of being drugged all the time. All I want to do is curl up in a ball. I ****** hate life! |
A couple things I want to say. First off, I would get back on your anti depressants, its clear your very depressed. Anti depressants are very safe, all they do is balance your serotonin levels. Its not that big of a deal.
Another thing is, stop getting wasted, know wonder your failing your classes, its hard to study when your wasted. Getting drunk/high is fun at first but it quickly just turns to hell, please take my advice and cut it out before worse things happen.
Yes there are alot of bad guys out there, assholes really. But I know for a damn fact there are a ton of good men out there, you've had some bad luck, but dont give up. Dont be ignorant and say "the guys here are afraid of women or pigs" thats so false, your letting your depression talk there. Get rid of your bad habits of getting wasted, dedicate your self to your sudies, eventually you'll meet a good guy, it just takes time but its worth it.
Keep your head up.
God bless
There are victims like you in both sexes.
I'm sure it's just you pick complete losers and douchebags to fall in love with cuz you find the safe ones too boring or something... idk.
You and your mom sure know how to pick'em.
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