LIFE SUCKS

life is fucking stupid

this may look long and boring (and it kinda is :L) but please read, everyhting is 1oo% true

sometimes i wonder why i was born. i hate my life it really sucks.and OMFG my mum and dad ALWAYS emphasise on how spoilt i am and how im so lucky because children in other countries dont hav anything i have.
my mum and dad think im spoilt although im 12 and have around 9-10 shirts and about 6 pairs of trousers no jewellery bout 2 pairs of earings and a bottle of hand cream i never use coz i no once it runs out il never get a new one :(. i have a shitty LG cell and no other technical devises except a DS (not even a lappy or an ipod touch or hairstraightners or any of that stuff).
im not alowed to answer back to my parents like today i went downstairs to eat some butter on toast and my dad says "why are u running away from me i say why dont we have brakfast together and u dont want to" i cant stand up for myslef obviosly but i was thinking 'what, u never said that and why wouuld i be running away from you?' and then he makes my layout the table as if were gonna be sitting there for hours as i start eating my toast he asks "have u got honey in that?" i hate honey and i always try to get away without eating eating it but i but some on (and he mixes old and new hony together so,, BLAH!!) and then as i start eating AGAIN he asks me if i have had any milk and i say no so he has a go at me and then i drink my milk and go upstairs close the of my room and type this when he tells me to NEVER shut my door.(see, i was only going to get a peice of toast and he turns into a whole meal grrrr).
im 'supposed' to get 3 pound pocket money a week but when i ask my parents start moaning as if they havnt got any money ALTHOUGH THEY BOTH WORK AS DOCTORS (one earns 80,000 and the other 120,000 each year) now im having to save my 3 pound school dinner money 2 days a week. my mum always borrows money and never gives it back like when she threaded her eybrows she BORROWED my money and never gave it back. i never ask for it back coz i now the answer they will give me.
im isolated coz im not allowed to go places by myself like shopping or trips with freinds or even SLEEPOVERS. every time my freinds ask me do yo wanna go shopping or for a sleepover i just say im busy tonight and it looks like thats how its gonna stay. im so anoied my so called parents wont let me go to sleepovers they think 'something will happen to me'. im not even allowed to go trick or treating coz we dont celebrate halloween even though most christians celebrate it don't they?
theres way more stuff but im just gonna list it here:
• about 2 months ago i was sharing a bed with my sister (for about 1 and 1/2 months) and my mum and dad didnt give ANY sympathy whatsoever
• im ugly
• i passed this test called the 11+ and my mum and dad said well done and took me to a restuarant (it might seem good but my freinds got HTCs IPhones MONEY CLOTHES MAKEUP PARTIES) I worked so hard on tat test as i practised for about just over a year.
• and now im currently going to grammar school were supposedly my parents think everyone is spoilt silly just coz they have phones, straightners ,are allowed sleepovers and get loads of pocket money eg 60pounds a month
• i dont get anything for my birthday (my religion is christian so i dont no why)
• i cry myself to sleep every night
• i wanna commit suicide RIGHT NOW
• my room has jesus pics all over it and if i were to take one down i would be in deep trouble
• im not allowed to wear mini skirts or dresses or any other item of clothing that dont cover my knee not even pajammas! (except shirts obvioussly)
• what ever happens im not allowed to wear shirts that are revaealing like that reveal me belly button (and other stuff...)
• I HAVE to kiss my parents when they com bak from work if i dont they go 'isnt there a how are you or a thank you daddy?' (it feels like kiss rape!)
• im not allowed to wear any form of makeup. e.g. once i was wearing some see through lip gloss i got as a present and my dad told me off and said 'have you asked your mum if your allowed to wear that?'
• im saving up for 6 years but all my birthday money from relatives only adds up to 180 pounds and if u were reading earlier u would see that it always gets BORROWED (and when i get checks my parents say theyll exchange it into real money but they NEVER EVER do)
• my mum and dad have talk talk privacy settings so now i cant access any good sights like facebook twitter and even babiesh sites like moviestarplanet (that i still love)
sometimes i wonder why i was born. i hate my life it really sucks.and OMFG my mum and dad ALWAYS emphasise on how spoilt i am and how im so lucky because children in other countries dont hav anything i have.
my mum and dad think im spoilt although im 12 and have around 9-10 shirts and about 6 pairs of trousers no jewellery bout 2 pairs of earings and a bottle of hand cream i never use coz i no once it runs out il never get a new one :(. i have a shitty LG cell and no other technical devises except a DS (not even a lappy or an ipod touch or hairstraightners or any of that stuff).
im not alowed to answer back to my parents like today i went downstairs to eat some butter on toast and my dad says "why are u running away from me i say why dont we have brakfast together and u dont want to" i cant stand up for myslef obviosly but i was thinking 'what, u never said that and why wouuld i be running away from you?' and then he makes my layout the table as if were gonna be sitting there for hours as i start eating my toast he asks "have u got honey in that?" i hate honey and i always try to get away without eating eating it but i but some on (and he mixes old and new hony together so,, BLAH!!) and then as i start eating AGAIN he asks me if i have had any milk and i say no so he has a go at me and then i drink my milk and go upstairs close the of my room and type this when he tells me to NEVER shut my door.(see, i was only going to get a peice of toast and he turns into a whole meal grrrr).
im 'supposed' to get 3 pound pocket money a week but when i ask my parents start moaning as if they havnt got any money ALTHOUGH THEY BOTH WORK AS DOCTORS (one earns 80,000 and the other 120,000 each year) now im having to save my 3 pound school dinner money 2 days a week. my mum always borrows money and never gives it back like when she threaded her eybrows she BORROWED my money and never gave it back. i never ask for it back coz i now the answer they will give me.
im isolated coz im not allowed to go places by myself like shopping or trips with freinds or even SLEEPOVERS. every time my freinds ask me do yo wanna go shopping or for a sleepover i just say im busy tonight and it looks like thats how its gonna stay. im so anoied my so called parents wont let me go to sleepovers they think 'something will happen to me'. im not even allowed to go trick or treating coz we dont celebrate halloween even though most christians celebrate it don't they?
theres way more stuff but im just gonna list it here:
• about 2 months ago i was sharing a bed with my sister (for about 1 and 1/2 months) and my mum and dad didnt give ANY sympathy whatsoever
• im ugly
• i passed this test called the 11+ and my mum and dad said well done and took me to a restuarant (it might seem good but my freinds got HTCs IPhones MONEY CLOTHES MAKEUP PARTIES) I worked so hard on tat test as i practised for about just over a year.
• and now im currently going to grammar school were supposedly my parents think everyone is spoilt silly just coz they have phones, straightners ,are allowed sleepovers and get loads of pocket money eg 60pounds a month
• i dont get anything for my birthday (my religion is christian so i dont no why)
• i cry myself to sleep every night
• i wanna commit suicide RIGHT NOW
• my room has jesus pics all over it and if i were to take one down i would be in deep trouble
• im not allowed to wear mini skirts or dresses or any other item of clothing that dont cover my knee not even pajammas! (except shirts obvioussly)
• what ever happens im not allowed to wear shirts that are revaealing like that reveal me belly button (and other stuff...)
• I HAVE to kiss my parents when they com bak from work if i dont they go 'isnt there a how are you or a thank you daddy?' (it feels like kiss rape!)
• im not allowed to wear any form of makeup. e.g. once i was wearing some see through lip gloss i got as a present and my dad told me off and said 'have you asked your mum if your allowed to wear that?'
• im saving up for 6 years but all my birthday money from relatives only adds up to 180 pounds and if u were reading earlier u would see that it always gets BORROWED (and when i get checks my parents say theyll exchange it into real money but they NEVER EVER do)
• my mum and dad have talk talk privacy settings so now i cant access any good sights like facebook twitter and even babiesh sites like moviestarplanet (that i still love)
there are many more personal ones...

now for my acheivments (that still dont gain me any physical prizes from my parents)
• when i passed my grade 1 flute with merit my dad didnt care
• i was the leading part in a musical at school out of 50 others
• i was nominated the most promiseing actress out of 52 people in a deiffernet show
• i get above average grades at school eg i got a 6B in science when at the end of year 9 i should be getting that
• i have played as 1 of the main parts in 4 shows
• i have been in 10 shows- not counting religous ones
• i have been in cricket and swimming tournemnts

as you can see all these things and more i have done and my mum and dad still dont care for me I could write another 13 pages about how it SUCKS to be me and i probably will. but i dont have the time to right now (homework)... :I
so thats me and my crap life.
there are many more personal ones...
so if you hear any more from me depressedthing thats me complaing about how my life sux again
i wish my parents never met...