I don't know anymore I am torn between idealism and rational man has the capacity to do so well but be so cruel and ignorant if only they could see, the trendys and conformists that they are being socially minipulated. I'm so alone. I have friends but only to satisfy the part of me that longs for any type of communication. There is but one who I can share my concepts and my feelings with, but I fear I may be falling for her. The rational side of me says its in your best intrests not to fall in love with a woman who is 16 years older then you and whos occupation and relationship you could jepordize by doing so. I try to fight it but when she tells me good morning or gives me that smile from all the way at the front of the room like she is looking beyond all souls who inhabit the room and into me I can not help it she is so smart,beautiful, and a trait not found in most superficial females today unconditionally kind. I know she enjoys my presense as we have great disscussions, I will ocassionally compliment her on how she looks but just enough as not to cast suspision on the part of how I feel about her. She will at times compliment me as well, and I feel that she favors me much more then any of my other contemporaries. This is destroying me I may be 18 but I am not a fool I have a higher IQ then most adults I think I now what love is. God is a cruel bastard. "Why put fruit on the lap of the starving man but cripple his hands and legs." | |
An older woman would appreciate you more. You're legal. But getting involved with a co-worker or boss is a bad idea. It's all roses when you're in the thick of love, but wait until it turns sour. Ouch. That rose turns into a thorn. Anyhow, if you want to date her- fine, it might actually be quite enjoyable BUT, find another job first. Otherwise, you may not have one in the future.
Nothing wrong with "older" women and having a fling... but remember, when your thirty- she'll be close to fifty. Hmmmmm.
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