So I'm a 25yo female. I have always been pretty shy and a bit of a loner but it never really got in the way until I got older and realized how lonely it could be. I moved away from home at 17 for college and don't regret it at all. Its just causing me to miss my family a lot. My mom is a manic depressive alcoholic who would rather drink than take her meds to get better. That scares me a lot since she's alone and I'm not there to look after her but I know that its not my battle to fight. I don't really have friends at all. I don't trust anyone. I have tried to get out there and just meet some new people but it never works out. I even stooped so low as to meet guys on Craigslist. Recently,there was one guy I thought was perfect for me, but I found out he was already in a committed relationship and he just wanted to fulfill his fantasy of having sex with a larger girl. It hurts that I was treated with such disregard but at the same time I kinda don't feel like I will attract any better. I just want to meet a really nice guy who wants more from me than to just use me. Sometimes I am really happy with myself. I am working full time, going to school full time and trying to get out when I can. Then, sometimes its almost as if I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I am seeking council in the next few days and I really hope I can turn this around. | |
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" im so tired i don't have the strength to get out of bed life exhausts me everyday its something else another problem I have to get over i can't take it anymore im just too tired!!!!"
i feel exactly like you . your not alone in your head im there with you.
Relationships are give-and-take deals. Any guy who you meet will want to use to use you for sex, etc. otherwise why would any guy want to be in a relationship? But the rationale behind relationships is that you get something in return as a woman. A good gf lets her man use her or depend on her, but he lets her lean on him also. Self-centered attitudes regarding relationships will not make you particularly endearing to a man looking for a relationship.
I have tried several online dating sites: Match.com and POF. Also tried Harmony.com a while ago. But the poster above is right, stay away from Craig's list. POF is free, but again, I found more sketchy people on the sites that are free. Match and Harmony you have to pay for, but it weeds out some of the dudes just looking to "score". In anycase, be really cautious.... Do not put anything in your profile that would give anyone any information that you would not want them to know. Many people put pictures of their houses, cars, children, ect... which if anyone wanted to put the energy into, could find out alot about you by posting these things... Be smart. When meeting anyone for the first time- meet them in a public place... I've got horror stories of some real winners (not!) So, just remember, if your self-esteem is low, don't try to placate it by introducing someone who might be "leecherous" and take advantage of you-
Best of luck Ash, you will find love- be patient:)
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