LIFE SUCKS

Breakdown, and then what?

Well, this past year has been really, really, really suck-ish... I lost everything, my whole life shifted in a day. I moved to another country, new people, new lifestyle, new language, and financial troubles. I'm 16 right now, and I feel like this isn't a life. I feel dead. Sure I have "friends" in school, but when the day is done, I'm all alone, now I barely leave my apartment. And weekends and holidays? They feel like eternity in hell. And it's killing me. My old friends have forsaken me, save for couple of people. I'm failing with girls too. And I feel... Alone... I feel my skin is tight, like it's beginning to break, peel off, and like I'm becoming a monster... I feel uncontrolable rage, and people around me are so dumb, so immature, and yet they act superior to me, although I can beat all of them both in knowledge, school work and on physical level (read between the lines : I can kick the shit out of them). It all sucks, it's too much for me to handle... Slow but steady, I drift into a breakdown. And than what? What's left after that? Life sucks... Life really sucks...