As a young man prone to thinking with the small brain, I began a relationship with my now wife. And yes to me she is very beautiful. Thats where this story should end but this is just the begining. It started with 1 child and ended with 3.I love my children and still love my wife, but after 21 yrs together and married for 18 its been enough.
I have worked my whole life after leaving high school and have worked my way through my career to a place that finally treats me with respect, wants my oppion and my presence every work day, and pays me more as a cunsultant than most plastic surgens get in a year.
So why am I writing this story, Because I need to vent! I have worked, 12hrs a day, came home and done dishes, cooked most meals, done the laundry on days off, did the yard work, taken out the trash, paid the mortgage every month for 20 yrs, made car payments, paid off credit depts, and can count on one hand how many sick days I have taken off work, and in some way kept my sanity.
You have sat by and said you were to tired, cant function, depressed because your brother died, didnt want to take on a career because the kids need you, you never even taken our youngest son to baseball try outs because you are depressed. You have wasted your life and now ride on my coat tail, you hold against me my job, the relationship I have with the kids, and the respect I get from my bosses. For years you have complained you were to tired for sex and I have respected you about this and went 10 months without your touch. I have gone through all you can put me through. You said after I sold my small business that I was a loser when in fact you made me sell to have more time at home, but home for you was a bigger house that you expect me to pay for. I've gone through the facebook messages to old friends that you some how want to hook up with, phene calls and emails from "just Friends" that all seem to be boys wanting to talk, Ive gone through you going out and spending nights away after the bar with the girls, I have gone through the "i dont love you no more, you should leave!" I've gone through it all!
But now that I have a consulting postion that makes me happy you have all of a sudden realized that Im the one for you. I'm tired of the drama, the yelling, the distance.
I do not blame this on you, It is my fault for the way things are, If i would have smacked you around, kept you living in a shit house wearing shit clothes you would have been more humble or left because materials are everything! Grow up and take responsiblilty for your own life! Get a job and get up before noon and see what the working person goes through, I wish you were someone different!
I'm the stupid one for letting you do all of this to ME!
I'm glad my parents cant see me now! | |
If your relationship has changed so much, then you both aren't the same people when you got married. You need to really think about your life. And see what options you have. If you are in a relationship that have no communication, no love and no sense of life. then you are in hell. yes, you are. what is life if you can't enjoy it?
I am telling you to divorce your wife. that is your decision and your decision alone to make. however, what i am saying to you is this -- life is short.
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