LIFE SUCKS

if you love your wife and kids, don't drink alcohol. quit the booze for them. live for them. and try for them. you don't want your kids growing up and saying the same thing about you that you are saying about your parents, do you? g-d bless.

You have had some pretty difficult situations in your life. Most of which were completely out of your control. I know a great deal about family dysfunctions. I myself was a *prisoner* of multiple emotionally crippling situations. None of which was I the cause of nor could I prevent or stop. It is a nightmare coping with other peoples' addictions and issues.

I will say this, though. You seem like a person who does care about your own wife and children. Please keep in mind that family dysfunction and all of the horrible scars it can create is all in your hands now. You have children. Please please do not allow your own pain, your own addictions, your own personal turmoil to rip their lives apart and impact them the way that your parents affected you. This you DO have control over. And please, never assume that your alcoholism and depression is not affecting them, or downplay how much it affects them. My parents were both alcoholics (amongst other issues) and I payed a heavy price for it while growing up. As an adult, I talked with my Mom and expressed to her the pain her drinking inflicted upon me. She never knew it slammed into me to the extent that it had. Sometimes parents do not see what their struggles do to their children. I genuinely hope you at least recognize your problems will affect your precious children along the way, if not already :(

I wish you the best and hope that you can find the strength to pull yourself up and out of your own despair. For your wife and children, if for no other reason.

You didn't come here to be judged, right? You didn't come here for people's opinion, right? You came here to find answers? Unfortunately, we can't give you that.

You have to find the answers within you. Your parents tried their best with what they had. Stop blaming your parents. They are gone. Once you stop that, you can focus on yourself.

You need to think about what is best for your wife and kids. She married you for a reason. Give her that reason again. I am sure it wasn't about a car or a house. Those are material items.

You can't change how the outside world treats you, but you can change your inside world. how you see the world? how you deal with the world? what you do for yourself? or what do to yourself?

Depression is not a easy thing to deal with, nor is alcoholism. Decide today to change that.. the rest is in your hands.

Todos los comienzos son dificiles! Pero la leccion estuvo muy buena. Las concncueecias de no estar en lo que estas, o como lo pones estar mas enfocada en los demas. Muy bueno. Y a esto, ya cambio tu opinion de los franceses?