I don't have anyone to share my problems. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm here in another country with my family, i'm just new here and my friends are back in my own country. so I don't have any friends here. not even one. well, i'm 19 years old now. i had a baby when i was 17, she's 2 years old now and he's with my " husband " kinda. we're not married yet. they are also in my country. i'm planning to go back there this coming august. i love my him even if he cheated 3 or 4 times BEFORE.i just can't break up with him. we're 4 years in a relationship already. sometimes I regret having a baby, having a relationship with him. coz my life has changed. i can't do things like a teenager do. i stopped going to school. i go to work. i'm so sad. i'm jealous of another teenagers that have a baby but still going to school.hang out with their friends. I was so dumb, if only i had broken up with him, this wouldn't have happened at all.. but i know it's too late. i can't do anything now. to just accept it. but my only wish is to finish my school and to have a professional work. and there's this thing, i don't know if i should marry him when i go back in my country. people always tell me that i'm still young, things might change. and i know that. so i'm really confused right now. i don't know if i still love him being away with him for 2 years. i think i do but not like before.i guess. and one of the reasons to marry him is that he can come here and work too so that i can go to school. is that a good reason to marry him? i know i can't escape my responsibility being a mum. but i really don't know if i should marry him. :( my life sucks. boring. no friends. i'm getting all depressed here. | |
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