Life if full of nothing but misery. I am always told by people that I should just focus on the positives, or be happy, but I can never seem to achieve this type of mentality. I just keep thinking about how much life sucks, and just how meaningless all of it seems to be. I'm 18 years old, and I have lived long enough to know that I want no part of this life any longer. It would probably be the best thing if I just died in my sleep. I know that I should probably try harder in life, and some of my problems are my own fault, but its just so hard. I see all these different people in this world, and no one seems to want to get along with each other. Most people seem to enjoy contributing to this endless cycle of hate and pain, which really makes me sad. I have some really good friends and family who mean the world to me, but I have an equal amount of bad family, or people who have pretended to be nice to me, just to turn around and be an ass to me. I don't even have a girlfriend. I want to love a girl so much, but none of them seem to show an intrest in me. And to make things worse, I see all of these pricks with these girls, and I just keep wondering why they would take a jerk, over someone who would care about them, and love them. I just have no hope anymore. I really need to straiten my life out, but I just keep wondering if it is even worth doing. Even on these posts I read here, I see good people who try hard, yet they still have just as hard of, or a harder time than me. Why does it have to be this way? Why can't we all just enjoy life, and try to get along with those around us? Why does everything have to involve a fight? Why does money have to be everyone's number one priority? I'm certainly guilty of wanting money, but I just want to be able to use it to get out of my house more. I don't believe it's the most important thing in this life though. I just feel so empty inside. I also feel useless, and feel like nothing I do will make a difference. I keep hoping that things will change, and I'll be able to make it past this part of my life, but I know that the world won't change, it will only get worse. So, even if the problems I have now get solved, I will just get new ones as I grow old. It doesn't seem worth it. I feel bad for everone who is good and has problems. If I could solve everyone's problems, I would, because I hate to see people sad. I've even thought about going into a profession that involves helping people, but I can't even help myself, so how can I ever expect to help someone else? I appologize for this long post, I just felt the need to express my feelings towards this disgusting existence. | |
Take a shower sometime, and wipe that silly fucking emo makeup off your pasty moonface zitfield. Your life is god's way of telling you that you are one of the biggest fuckups ever to walk the earth, except for indian jo and his craptastic Spirit cigarettes.
that being said.. I think everyone has hardships and wants to achieve success in life and relationships. even the people that seem very happy and put together have hard times that arent always visable on the outside. your young. it gets better. lay out some goals and ways that you plan to achieve them. and in the mean time go to a therapist and talk to someone that can give you ways healthy ways to cope with your saddness and suffering. hang in there.
are treated,
I once believed love was real , but now realize we are all animals ,just like every other animal the only difference most of us are civilized and intelligent , hence like in the wild ,a species always will pick the more attractive ,stronger , partner ,to mate .
And the average joes like me and you just fill in the time for them till they find someone better .
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