LIFE SUCKS

Quasi Lost Cause

Heres the deal, three months ago, this amazing girlfriend that's was living with, broke up with me. I've launched into depression, not because of that, but because of everything it has made me realize was messed up with my life. I am 27, with an above average intelligence, semi poor social ability, an attractive face, but not much talent or things to talk about. I guess this has always been how I am, I used to make people laugh, but now I have realized its just because I can be goofy at times. I have yet to graduate from college, and find it extremely difficult to continue living like this. I am not in the possession of a job, nor do I have the means to force a smile or laugh. I have this incredibly passionate heart that has been broken a few times, and I no longer think I will find true faithful love. The latter is the hardest thing for me, a human, to deal with. I was raised in an upper middle class home, but that meant nothing in life socially. I am at the end of my rope and can't tie a knot. Everybody says things have to get better, but I think of them as overly optimistic idiots who don't get me. Additionally, I fear I am not interesting enough at this point of my life to make friends, somebody help me. I really don't want to die alone and penniless.