LIFE SUCKS

I know alot of sad sacks, maybe I'm contagious.

Just got off the phone with a buddy of mine who has been sleeping in the back of a van. Wife left him. He went home to Long Island to try and get life together. Hasn't given him much of a break. His old lady went to Arizona. Hasn't seen his kids in 8 months. Talked to another pal who lives in Ohio. Jobs are scarce so he has to work in another part of the state. Spends weekends at home and while he is away busting his ass for family, his wife likes to cheat. Got two friends in Florida both on second divorces due to spousal infidelity. Another pal in Ohio who's gal decided to decorate their living room a year ago with a 45 and her brain. Pal in California on shaky ground in 2nd marriage after 1 year. I've coined it "Vietmaam". Guess we just don't pick em very well or we all coincidentally suck as men. Me? Wife of 15 years wants a divorce. She filed a week before my birthday. Thanks for the present hun. Wants the house and kid. Took us twelve years to conceive. Had to go invitro. Only ever met my own father once. He never knew his. Thought I could break that chain guess not. We're struggling financially like the majority of the country. Don't want to live in my car when everything is said and done, don't see any other option though. Wife and my boy need the bread more than I do. Was a homeless teen (ran away, pretty dumb) before I joined the military, did it once I can do it again. Back will just creak more know I guess. My Step father who rescued my mother and I from poverty is on his death bed back in Ohio. I'm in Massachusetts. Can't bear to tell my Mother I've failed in my marriage. She has too much to worry about as is. Let her down enough by leaving home, dropping out, joining the U.S.A.F, and eloping in Las Vegas. Took her along time to get used to the fact I married young. Been having lot's of nightmares. Shrink thinks I have PTSD stemming from a few violent incidents in youth coupled with the strain of current events. Guess all I need know is a dog so it can die, thus completing my country tal of woe. I know alot have it worse than me but this looked like an okay place to share my story thus far. Borderline atheist so I'll skip the god bless and in it's stead just say.. Thanks for reading and Good luck to us all.