LIFE SUCKS

I thought all was lost...but then I found..

HI,

I stumbled across this website by accident and felt very compelled by many stories that I read. I had the same opinion...life sucks...for 10 years, between the ages of 16-26 I was completely depressed and miserable and felt hopeless.

it started at 16 when I got my heart broken for the first time, then my parents got divorced and soon after found myself in situation with my boss- he was molesting me. my life spiraled from there..and I went from one bad relationship to the next and constantly felt hurt and heartbroken from the time I was 16-25....I dont think one day passed that I didnt feel heartbroken over someone and desperate for them to come back to me. at some point during that time I started drinking to the point I would black out every weekend and have no idea what I did or with who I did what with. then I got into drugs, mostly cocaine and at one point I was doing it every day and spending about 800/month on blow.

at 23 my mom kicked me out because I was a mess (even though i am well educated with two university degrees which i managed to obtain through a drunken stupor)emotionally I was a wreck, and she didnt know what to do with me....so on top of being a miserable, depressed, drug addict and alcholic I needed to get a good job and find a way to support myself. I found a great job at a consulting company...but I would dread going there everyday and it was painful to get through the day

I pulled my act together just enough to make it through and pay my rent...dont get me wrong, anyone who knows me would call me, a pretty, sweet, funny, intelligent happy person...but thats not how i felt at all....and i hated spending time with my friends because they were all happy and in love and it made me sick. I truly did not think I could ever find happiness.

I dont want to sound like a salesperson, but someone bought me the book The Power for christmas...I thought it was a waste of time, but i read it from cover to cover and felt inspired by it.

that evening I stopped by a male coworkers place to pick something up for work, he invited me in for a drink...and told me how mesmorized he was always been by me...we kissed that night...and then spent New Years Eve together...after that we were a couple, moved in together September 2011 and he proposed to me this past newyears...He is very successful so I quit my job and am now working part-time doing something that I love

Anyways, Im telling you this so you can feel encouraged, that your life can change...I dont know if you have control over that or if its all a coincidence...but try your very best to stay positive and focus on the things you want instead of what you dont want....it worked for me. everything negative in my life has been replaced by positive...but still have weakness for wine:)