My Life sucks real bad!! But really I am not even sure if it really does suck. I don't even think it sucks at all. I think I am just complaining and whining over nothing.
I am 21 have no friends or a girlfriend; or a good job. But those aren't problems; I have made friends, cool ones too in the recent past. As far as getting jobs; I have a job that pays and I get more jobs for now if I use craiglists, so thats not a big deal. Plus I'll be in school in sept for the job i do want. As far as girlfriends; well that will take time. As long as I just keep practicing meeting, talking, and socializing; that will change I have improved much already on that but still more yet to improve.
Am I happy or just impatient. I am Impatient; I have a pattern where i work on myself big time hugely then I stop and not care at all. Like who cares; too much work to do. I tend to get unhappy, alot; like 3x a month for like 1-2 weeks at a time all over bullshit. My mind is too strong for me. I have read self-help books insanely a lot. I know that all problems are just illusions and that there is positive thinking, and changes on behavior to change my life for the better.
So what is wrong with my life. Is there anything wrong because I tend to get into ("Not care; and not give a fuck about my life at all, and start having daily video game marathons, mindless internet surfing, and some stupid ass porn watching) Basically everything I am not supposed to do If I want to be succesful in all areas. I get into those "Whats the point of trying mode, life is too much work; I dnt want to deal with I am too scared to deal with life who cares. I don't care about my life mode") like 4 times a month every week.
Am I scared to live life; Am I putting too much high expectations on myself and driving myself so carzy that I just don't give a fuck anymore. AM I complaing like a bitch over nothing. | |
Just poke the browneye until you strike stink oil. That's your goal, after all.
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