LIFE SUCKS

My life suck!!!!!

My life suck!
I am sorry for my english language,, I hope you understand something!!!
My name is Sara, 21
ok,, my story, after my elementary school, I dont know what I want do in my life, so
and the next year after elemtary school I choose to go simple highschool.
In elementary school I learn good, but in highschool, I dont know why I learn bad. And then I left highscool, I choose what I think , of that moment what to do in my life, I choose to go in art school,
I really like my art school, but then in art school, some students starts laught at me, and I dont know why, then they say that I am lesbian, because I in my all life been lonely, And yes I am boring,, I dont have friends, I dont have nothing, I start hate my life, start hate my family, I start cut hands, I dont talk with nobody, I hate everyone,
And I lost my art creativity of my life, I learn in art school 3 years,, and I left, because I can endure that people, I hate them all..
after art school I go again on the highschool,, ok,I finish,
But after this years what I spent crying, lonely, I dont know What I want to do in my life,, Im scare to go some other school, because scare to feel like this 3 years, And Im scare to again leave school without diplom..
And Then I take a chance again, I going to learn about IT,, about computers.
again,I am lonely, and I feel that I am doing mistake,, Its hard, But I think its starts again that 3 years,,, But I dont want,, I have 21, I dont have job, My parrents supports me, I never before not working, I dont have job experience,, and know one need like that person who never before working. and I can't stands up to my legs,, Im feel awful.

I read other storys, and start cry, that someone have die family, and the life is awful and suck. But I think of my self just,, or I am stupid, or people like me can't live. Pleas!!! whaat I have to do, I leave my studies, kill my self(besauce I dont see in my life future) or I dont know...