Other people on here have really serious problems I know, but I cant help feeling desolate and hopeless.
A little background. I am a 25 year old guy still in my senior year of college, and I am badly in love. I have no way around it. I am head over heels for this girl. We are in college together, she is 21 and finishing up her senior year (on time, unlike me because I'm an idiot). We have classes and do a lot of student clubs together, and all I want is to make her happy.
We are great friends, and I can tell she really cares about me as a person, and she is just such a great girl. The problem? She's been with her boyfriend for 3 years, and I don't think he's going anywhere.
He is 23 and graduated on time from our school last May, unlike me. Also unlike me, he has a great job, is making a lot of money, and lives in a nice apartment in New York City, 2 hours from our school. I have no idea what I'm going to do when I graduate. I am 5'11'' and 245 lbs with nothing special to look at, and he is 6'2'' and couldn't be an ounce over 205 lbs. How can I compete?? He's really outgoing too and I've always been kind of shy.
Once we graduate in May, she is moving to NYC to be with him (also where her family is), and I am absolutely devastated, because I'll be stuck here. I thought this 1 year that they would be long distance would give me a chance to win her over, but they're like the PERFECT FUCKING COUPLE!! It is the worst feeling in the world to hear her talk about him, because she's really crazy about him.
I feel like an asshole for hating him as much as I do, because he's actually a really nice guy. Always been nice to me when I've met him, bought me drinks, and he treats her like a queen. But I don't care. I wish he was gone.
In May she moves to NYC, and then i'll lose her forever....what should I do? Do I tell her how I feel? I have to try and get her to give me a chance...I don't know what to do with myself. I feel empty | |
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