Need Clarity | | Posted by come back when you're a little m at May 17, 2010 | | Tags: Attitude 2010 May |
Lately I've been experiencing moments where I lie in bed with a severe head ache. I feel empty. Now I've heard 5 different reasons given to me by 5 different friends: 1. I am suffering depression. 2. I am suffering from loneliness. 3. I am sexually frustrated. 4. I have multiple personalities and one of them is unhappy. 5. The fact that I am out of college with not as much work has given me withdrawal symptoms.
Now all of these seem reasonable.
Depression: I have suffered depression in the past. I've been advised to take medication but I refused to take it (I was afraid of change). I've felt this way due to my lack of social acceptance. But lately I've been accepted a little. In recent weeks I have been stressed out and during weeks where I had a ton of work I felt this way.
Loneliness/ sexual frustration: Well I never had a girlfriend in my life but I don't tend to mind that. The only reason why I considered this as a possibility is because it could be some natural reaction to inactivity at an intimate level. Though I have my doubts.
Mutliple Personalities: I diagnosed myself for this and I am convinced that It's possible that I have different views on life, people, society, at different times. But to say that I have a whole new personality... that is a stretch but I'll accept the possibility. Maybe the idea would be mood swings, Idk if guys can have mood swings... if so then I wonder if that makes me a Drama Queen.......
Withdrawal: I am a thinker. I'm interested in the science/ math areas. I am far ahead of everyone else my grade in terms of mathematics. I am a sophomore in college who has already finished 90% of the Pure mathematics major requirements and I am already working on my requirements for a masters degree. Since I am done for the year it is possible that the lack of stress that I have has been quite a change. Maybe the inactivity is too much for me.
Why I am posting this? I want a bunch of opinions. Which of the 4 (since 2 and 3 seem to be related) do you think is the source of my headaches and sense of emptiness? | |
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truth is that you are out of college...
maybe it's because you are gay?
Nothing wrong with you, your brain isn't making serotonin and THIS is why you are sad and feel defeated etc all the time.
I WAS in your shoes years ago and I went to a psychiatrist and got on a anti-depressant that worked for me and I feel NORMAL AND NOT DEPRESSED!!!
THERE IS HOPE!
You cant just try 1 or 2, NOT ALL MEDICATIONS work for certain people, man you need to TRY to find the RIGHT ONE FOR YOU! Stop feeling sorry for yourself and GO TO A DR
xo
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