LIFE SUCKS

My Simple Life

I don't even know where to start... Most probably, my life is not the worst out there, but damn does it suck. Let's start with how I am. I was born on March 9, 1989 [So you can all guess my age] I was born with a disability on my left eye which, I believe, is called Kearns–Sayre syndrome [KSS for short] which pretty much disabled me from opening my left eye unless I force it open with a bit of force. My visibility in that eye is nearly blind. Anyways, I said 'I believe' because this has not been confirmed by any optometrist, but out of all the descriptions of disabilities/diseases I have read, this one fits my symptoms the best. As you all can imagine, this problem prevents me from getting a Drivers' license and, so, I always depend on transportation. [Luckily, there is a free service that allows me to go wherever I want inside my town. A free public bus, that is.]

I also possess a personality which, well, I believe is the cause of my unpopularity. I usually never like what everyone else likes; I am not the party-type of person, not very talkative, nor funny or any of that. I am the complete opposite. I don't like any sports, exercising is not really one of the things I do either. The result? Weighting around 230lbs. In my family, there's a lot of history of heart attacks; in fact, my dad died of one when I was 9yrs old. I am your typical 'nerd' who sits on a computer all day and chat with people, stuff like that; I am aware that I may not have the perfect diet, but I don't really care for it either. You live doing the things you love. Friends? Rarely any at all. Not that many people care for me, but thankfully there are those rare few that do, and other people which, I believe, just pity me and are trying to be nice.

My family is probably the closest thing I have [Which, thankfully, a lot of them do really care for me and I am blessed with lots of love from them.] The closest person in my life is my mom, which she couldn't be a better one. She gives me everything even when she truly can't. I am so grateful for her and I wish there was a way I could financially support her, but I have not had a job in two years. My last, and first, job was at my local movie theater; I was hired as an usher and worked there for about two years [One year and eleven months to be more precise]. Basically, I do not have any source of income; my mom is close to having 70 years of age and I live alone with her. I am very desperate for a job, now even thinking of working at a McDonald's.

My internet life, being my only social one, is not really good either. I have been an outcast in most of them, and even banned from others. The few friends I do have, well... Never really contact me unless I do so with them. I bet I could not text or instant message anyone for six months and no one would even try to see if I am okay. I don't know if its just me, but this is how I feel my life is like. My cousins? I feel they pity me whenever I go out with them or get invited to their house.

I have also had very bad luck for the last 8 months or so. I have lost just about everything I owned, except for my HDTV which has not broken.. Thankfully. My laptop and my BlackBerry [Yes, they suck. I know.] are gone. Well, not gone, but damaged to a point which is very hard and expensive to repair; the same moment where you are better off just buying a new one; talking about new, my brand new $899.99 iPad 2 now has a cracked screen. Anyways, what happened to my laptop? Plain and simple, bad BIOS flash after I stupidly tried t update a perfectly-good working BIOS out of curiosity, I won't get into detail, but my laptop had just come back from the shop after fixing the power button which was broken due to me opening the laptop up and trying to find out what was wrong with the back light. The only good thing about it is that I learned a whole lot more about computer hardware and I am more experienced nowadays. A bad Basic Input Output System [BIOS] update means that your computer won't recognize any of the hardware that it is currently attached to it [Processor, RAM, hard drives, screen, keyboard, etc etc] unless the BIOS has a recovery mode and it detects the motherboard's speaker for troubleshooting. Its hard to recover from a failed BIOS update and usually requires removing the BIOS ROM chip and soldering in a new one to get it back into working condition. My BlackBerry? Trust be told, I threw it against a wall and the screen got damaged really bad. I tried replacing the screen, but got the wrong model; I opened up my BlackBerry and installed it successfully, but simply got a white screen when it turned on. My iPad? I was on my way to my college class and it fell, cracking the screen, though its still in perfect functionality.

I am not sure what else to say... Like I said, maybe my life doesn't really suck.. But it feels like it does. Maybe I am just a clumsy loser? But then again.. I have never had problems with my things before.. I have always been very careful of my belongings. What do you all think?