I'm 19 years old and have absolutely no family. I'm not suicidal, nor have I ever thought about it. My mom left me at 4. I've never met my dad, let alone a hint. I lived with my grandmother uniformity she passed away. So I lived in foster care from 14 till 18. I dropped out at 16 and got my g.e.d, and started working. I have a decent job but its frustrating. I don't fuck with with people. I don't consider people my friends. Fuck friends there bullshit. Bitches make me mad too. I mean, getting layed is not a issue, it's trying to find love. I mean no one loves me!!! No one. I'm all alone. It made me angry, made me hate people. I fucking hate people with families. I'm broke as shit cause I have to buy all my shit! I hate people with parents. Especially ones with money that pay for all thier shit. I try to find the good in life there's just so much shit I don't have that others do. I'm so alone. I want to be loved! Why me!! I know a dumb bitch won't love me. I'm talking about the real shit. Unconditional love. I always think why me. It rages inside me. If there is a god I'm pissed off at his ass too. I doubt there is though, I've prayed so much when I was younger and nothing happened. I know ill never have a family and ill probably never be shit. Too many disadvantages. I mean no one understands the pain. To be absolutely alone at my age. It's unfair. If you have a, as in 1 family member your fucking blessed! Families disgusting me now. I hate all that shit. Cause ill never have it. I honestly have no fucking clue what life has in store in for me. But I guarantee it will suck ass and I'm won't be able to see what good shit is there, because of all the shit I don't have that I'm reminded of everyday by you motherfuckers. So big thanks so everything, if gods ass exists then him too. Im just so angry all the time. I fucking hate everything. | |
So maybe you could pick a stray dog off the street and maybe go to some social activities and tell people you have a dog. There are a lot of chicks that are pet people. c:
GOOD LUCK
Anyway. I completely understand. I have family but I dont really have family. Growing up I only saw my dad maybe 2 times a year(and he lived 10 mins away from me). My mom left me for some man on and off all my life so I had to practically fend for myself. She finally moved to Arkansas and left me homeless and that shit sucked. I was working two jobs seven days a week on the bus for 4 hours a day till I finally got my own place. How many 18yr olds do you know paying for their own way through life. It sucks. times are hard man. I completely agree. Tried religion and it helped till the pastor of the church cut down my throat in front of the whole entire congregation for something that I didnt even do!! The fuckery of these so called "adults" are ridiculous. Im angry all the time too. All my friends seem so happy and are married or travel and shit and Im on my own working actually having to earn my way through life while people my age just get waited on hand and foot. Dont worry man I just feel like we are the ones who are gonna get something good when the time comes. As far as the girl goes, LET HER IN. Dont let a few bad chicks ruin all the eggs. Learn to trust someone it really does help to talk to someone!
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