I am so lonely I have been married for 35 years but my husband cheats on me all the time and denites it , I don't know why I keep believing his lies, I do love him but I am getting to the pointwhere I feel my life is useless
But you can do something about this....DITCH THE BASTARD....get a new dress, really nice shoes get out and find a life without him.....if the milk goes bad you throw it out right? You would not eat moldy bread? THROW HIM OUT!!!!!!
I did the same thing for 24 years, but finding out he had an affair with MY COUSIN for 7 years and then when it came to light i was told to just get over it! i filed for divorce and now he has turned into the biggest arse hole! he blames me! I went looking and found out, if i hadnt it would have ended anyway! so my fault! I filed for Divorce so all my fault!! so sick of it all, hes still using me as a verbal punch bag!! 24 years i gave him and for what?
I also am married for 35 years and my husband cheats on me with MEN! One day I was sitting hurt and depressed The silence became so profound that it actually got my attention. I just LISTENED. Then I noticed that every thought I had sort of changed the background hissing noise. I experimented more and more each day. Now I have only to think something and I have access to directing my life. I feel whole and other people can see this in my eyes and they respect me. I understand now that my husband never felt any respect for himself and so he cannot respect anyone else. I feel sorry for him and try to make him feel his own value as a human being. It is a long process but he is slowly drawing closer to me in more important ways. I feel much less a failure. Give listening a try. It is your own life that wants to come forward to you and show you your own worth. Believe me you are NOT pointless. You'll see.
I don't believe that humans are meant to stay with one person, till the end of their time on this planet. People change... I certainly am not the same woman at 38, that I was at 23, when I stupidly married. That was the Worst decision I have ever made.
I honestly think marriage was invented as a way for men to own women. It was also a good way to make it illegal for women to live life, while men go screw whoever they want.
NEVER again will a man own my vagina. I am the owner of me, and I will do as I damn well please for the rest of my time on this planet.
Men are the most selfish & loathsome species on Earth, & I see it as my duty to fuck them over at my leisure.
I feel what you're going through. I adored my husband for years. He always cheated. I see that now. But now he's openly cheating. I woke up this morning thinking about killing myself. I don't have any family, and he would yell and raise so much hell whenever I got a job I always ended up quitting just to please him. We live in the country and I don't have not even one friend. I'm so lonely I feel physically sick. I've been trying to find a job, but for some reason companies aren't knocking down my door to hire a 51 year old women whose been out of the work force for 7 years. I guess I'll keep trying. If I can just get a job to support myself I can finally leave him. Being alone would be so much better than having to witness his cheating. I see this is an older post. I hope you left him already. I hope you have happiness in your future. I hope we all do.
I don't believe that humans are meant to stay with one person, till the end of their time on this planet. People change... I certainly am not the same woman at 38, that I was at 23, when I stupidly married. That was the Worst decision I have ever made.
I honestly think marriage was invented as a way for men to own women. It was also a good way to make it illegal for women to live life, while men go screw whoever they want.
NEVER again will a man own my vagina. I am the owner of me, and I will do as I damn well please for the rest of my time on this planet.
Men are the most selfish & loathsome species on Earth, & I see it as my duty to fuck them over at my leisure.
It is quite therapeutic. :)
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