LIFE SUCKS

life really sucks!

Well, I'm. 40 yr old ,single dad of 3 now teen kids..the woman I married became ill after our third son,postpartum blues, then she got worse depresion ,bipolar was next on the period of time (4-6 years) I raised my kids the best I could,she was present but always asleep or in the. Hospital,I was doing everithing on my own,bathing them,cleaning,cooking,school meetings and also, I Was running my own small business and I was Doing good,then came the real hard times..worse than all this? You be the judge, my wife got worse, diagnosed now with esquizophrenia...my older son started to show signs of bipolar,bad grades at school and bad behavior and saying at school he will kill himself...of course,the school district made sure he was sent to a psiquiatric hospital,he was there for 3 weeks,after coming home he wi be ok for 1-2 weeks,then started again..for the next 3 years I saw him get worse and at the same time my other two kids needed me too.he was in and out of hospitals,he was manipulating everyone to vet what he wanted, by then I could not attend the business,so I closed shop...I was giving everyone my full attention. Then my youngest son,who was 10 yrs old started with eating disorders..school steped in and I was forced to send my son 700 miles away to a children's hospital..I was visiting every week for the next 10 weeks he was there..he comes home,everithing is fine for 2-3 weeks,then again all 3 got sick ,I was in the emergency room with 3 diferent bed ,one for wife two for the kids and all of them sent to diferent hospitals in diferent virus ...also I needed to go on the ambulance to sign them in. Then I will go visit them,and later I will have to go pick them up when they got discharged..I thank my mother and brothers for all the help I got from them without asking..my wifes family ? They did not care for her at all... But they were fast to tell every one how I was so lazy,how I did not worked any more,how I was. Using wifes disability check ,but not one time they offer help,specially my mother in law,she will tell my kids how I was using her daughter ,and I was only after her money...really? I will go regular all this for years just to keep an ssi check ? Well,after many years it was expected to loose my house..we were homeless! Cps on my ass about me not taking proper care of my kids..they took my two kids,and I was left with my daughter and wife..it took me 6 months to get them back,by then I was working again,then my older son started doing weird things and more trouble came..I was not able to work for weeks at the time ,then got kicked out of appartment...again!.. I was so sick and tired of all this,so I stoped working ,I stayed home and took care of them all the best I could,now,2 years later things look better,but I can't take care of money,I spend all incoming money so fast,but not on me, I spend it on my kids,I guess to make up for all the bad times..I could start my business Again but I think its no use ,that I will end up loosing it all again, my wife and I don't have a real relationship,we both want out and I'm ready for it,just not feeling like starting all over again...I think now I got the depression..so what is next? I don't know...I'm takin one day at the time...