Where to start? I'm 31 years old and have a masters degree in management, but no real job. I had to quit my last job of 8.00 an hour working for the State of DE as a part time employee for their public shooting range due to environmental factors. These factors included lead exposure and fear of being shot on a daily basis due to lack of training for employees. I know what your thinking and that's did he call OSHA about the lead at least? Yes I did and apparently they have no control over what the State of DE does, but can write tickets all day long to the private citizen. Go figure that one! Although while working there for the past eight months, I did try and move up the ladder in the organization only to be passed up twice to people that were "politically connected" as my former boss would say. To make matters worse I have lived with my parents for the passed three years and see no hope in sight for that situation to change. I even make it a habit to apply to five jobs a day and rarely I get a call back. I know what your thinking and it's that this guy must have something wrong with him? I have a masters and can market myself very well! In fact before the collapse of home building, I was making six figures in sales, had a nice place to live and drove a brand new Boxster! Now I drive a second hand Focus and easily get depressed thinking about the good old days when I had money and this is shallow, but women came in the package too.
After losing everything life really wasn't that bad and I met a girl. To make a long story short, two years ago we got engaged and she thought it was her duty to tell me that she cheated on me. I tried for another six months, but it had to end because I don't do cheating. The irony of this is that I expected a different result as every girl I have ever had a relationship with has cheated on me.
Now onto part two:
Ten years ago, I was convicted of a crime I didn't commit and plead down a felony to a misdemeanor. I know what your thinking again and that this guy must have done it for a felony charge! To make an even longer story shorter, I tried to help a high school girl out of a situation where her father was molesting her. The girl's sister in turn made allegations about me and hence charges were filed. (My parents hired a high priced attorney because I was only twenty and had no idea about attorneys or things of this nature) I eventually plead to a high misdemeanor because that was the best I was going to get.(At my hearing for a pardon, ten years later, my new lawyer asked me how this had gotten this far considering the case was so weak) Back to the story and the girl was found to be a liar by the police and her father wasn't molesting her. In real life the police hadn't done their job and he continued to molest her until someone finally killed him, but it wasn't me. In fact I hadn't seen her since this all happened, but read about it in the local paper years later.
What I did next is going to blow everyone's mind on here in hopeless land and that was author a novel about the whole thing. You can buy it on Amazon or Smashwords.com under J. Lester "After the Sunset". Sales are dismal, but my point is that life isn't over and I have a record, been pardoned, made six figures, been cheated on countless times, wrote a novel, and now live with my parents again, but even though life feels hopeless today, you never know what tomorrow will bring! I see so many on here talking how all hope is lost and they would be better off dead. You're not and believe me I have been there! I pulled the trigger many years ago only to hear a click and to later find out that the firing pin was sheared in half. Was it some higher power or was it from high usage out of the firearm(pins were frequently known for failure in this model)? I don't know, but at the time it was such a letdown that I couldn't try it again! Now I look at it as something else entirely and know life will get better because I have already been through worse.
So yes your lives suck, but its not over! | |
If your story about the failed suicide attempt is true, WOW! That definitely means something. I would call it fate and from then on you should have known to NEVER try to take your life again. I totally agree about tomorrow being another day. Life is unpredictable. It goes up and down and up and down and down and up and up. Nothing lasts forever and you are NEVER going to know what you are going to get. About those women you used to get while you were making good $, you are better off without them. Prolly gold diggers. Getting cheated on happens more often that not and we learn from that. Learn about the warning signs and to pick better next time. So I congratulate you for going through a lot and being positive despite it all. Good luck with your book and everything else.
You are absolutely right about cheaters and gold diggers too. I myself have learned many lessons about them and hope in the future to make better choices! I also wish you luck with your own writing endeavors!
thank you
I wrote on this site to show people that life isn't over and tomorrow is a new day.
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