At first, I started to write a self-pitying story. No doubt I was looking for sympathy. For those who take the time to respond and write encouraging words to others in these types of forums, I am impelled to say that I believe it really speaks to your character and the concern and kindness you have for others. However, that is not my goal in writing this post. Mostly, I simply want to write a few words to express feelings in an anonymous forum.
My life is no where near as bad as many who post on this site. I do not wish to degrade the real problems people face by whining about my own insignificant problems but I would like to talk about them just a bit. I am a forty-year old virgin who is fat and unattractive. I think my personality is poor and I am lazy. As you can see, my problems are my fault and not caused by circumstances or others. In fact, the first time I went to a psychologist, he literially told me that I need to (1) grow up, (2) be a man, (3) stop whining and pouting, (4) stop being lazy, and (5)to stop trying to draw up sympathy. As you can see, my situation is my fault, and mine alone. He told me all I needed to know and I didn't feel the need to go back again.
Anyways, as I have repeatedly read, it is not an individuals circumstances that dictates their mental state, but how well they cope. I don't cope very well so I have decided to exit this scene. This is not an implusive decision, but one I have thought about for many years. Yes, I have considered many angles, including the affect it may have others, so as I stated, I am not looking for sympathy or even a response. I guess I just wanted to make a mark, albeit a small one, before I go. I have some of the chemicals I need to make H2S and know where I can get the rest. There is still some planning and a few things I need to take care of in preparation but I have decided that this is the best solution for all involved, including myself.
If you have taken the time to persever to the end of my whining, thank you. :) | |
There's a movie called 40 year old virgin, and it's a comedy, not a drama. see the levity of your situation.
Lighten up.
You're gonna kill yourself because you lack pussy? If you want to kill yourself why don't you fast to death, that way you can at least experience being skinny J/K.
Women like skinny guys. I assume you have enough money to live, all you have to do is loose weight and be more confident.
You don't suck!
Don't kill yourself. Once you lose weight, you'll find that your life will fall into place IF YOU PUT IN EFFORT.
Please don't kill yourself. You'll hurt your family.
:) You're extremely intelligent, and let me tell you, that is INCREDIBLY rare in today's society.
Come on.
Just lose weight.
Bam. Okay?
Stay strong. :)
And get a hooker.
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