Imagine this,
waking up everyday with fighting,arguing,pain, and hatred.
Life for me has been the same since i was born . 15 long years living and feeling to die. You get told everyday your a slacker you never do anything right you feel to fall but your still standing. Yea i know how it feels. You cry and feel like your a coward, you grab the knife and threaten yourself but your still somehow alive. Life...what is it...its a fucking hell hole that was created for you to live throagh! Many believe or tell you that its all normal that everyone goes throagh stress, but what they dont understand is everyones stress is different, and they have no fucking clue what your going throagh!Many laugh at you in school due to what you wear, yea that was me, dark clothes,chains, heavy metal t-shirts, eyeliner, i hid my true beuty because all people did was make fun of it, even family! So i walk in school hallways, whispers wander, and emo, goth, whatever you must was shouted at me. Bullied and scarred in my heart, i felt it all hit me at once. And ofcourse i felt the pain of it it me fast i felt to cry but tears never came that fast i tryed to stay strong. So now your in High-school and its a whole new level. You see people who dress just like you, but even better you may possibly see your first high school crush. LAAAME to some people but not to me at the moment. we talked chatted facebooked eachother, and sorta fell for one another. but little did i know that Highschool was as lame as any other. This guy first of all was older than me so different for sure and treated me terribly. Parents say they can fix you but they break you to the point you wanna scream. Love was so fake freshman year and i believe its that way for most people. No-one is forever in love at such an early age, unless its ment to be. every day i show my face back at that school meeting new people and seeing some i know, but it sux so badly. so many people are assholes and are so iggnorent. why cant people act like i do, when you bump into someone say sorry dont freaggn give me the dirty ass look when it was your FAULT!! but anyways life for some of you out there is really tough, i know how you all feel. and to tell you something right now i purposly typed in google MY LIFE SUCKS just to see if something like this would pop up. im srry to those out there that feel to fall due to your life. But know something you are not the only one who feels so empty inside, whatever your stress may be, know that your not alone, and sometimes just typing how you feel and discussing it with a cool friend may change you for a few minutes and cheer you up and may even make you laugh a little. it sometimes works for me and it may work for you too! thanx | |
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